i know this isn’t the usual post for a place like this, but i feel like i’ll reach the right audience here..

so for starters i moved in with my bf a few months ago. we were friends when i moved in, but we’ve always had feelings for each other. ( we didn’t get together until i moved in because of distance and bad timing ).

once i moved in and we got together everything just fell into place perfectly. he is such an absolute sweetheart, smart, mature, humble, funny, cute. everything i could ask for in a man. we have such amazing times together.

we have ups and downs just like all relationships, but lately it seems like there has been a lot more downs. i know with our situation how we started dating when i moved in probably sounds alarming. we thought the same, and tried to take things slow. but … we were just so eager to finally get to see each other after so long and get the chance to be in a relationship with each other.

so we definitely did let things move much faster than we intended to… which i’m aware has most definitely hindered our relationship as i’m sure he is too.

most of our fights just consist of petty shit that we apologize for within an hour. but after so many petty fights it adds up..

i know this will be a controversial topic, but one of the things that really seems to irritate me is the difference in our lifestyles. it seems like they’re the same but lately idk..

it feels like life has passed me by already too much. never really had much of the “teenage dream” years except for the end of it. i want to have as much fun as i can while i’m still young. i don’t want to wake up 40 one day and realize i wasted these years just sitting at home because that’s exactly what happened with my teen years. although i know balance is key but it’s been way too much of just sitting at home.

my bf and i engage in hippie lifestyle type shit. we occasionally do blow about once a month tops when we can finally both get the same day off.

other than that we don’t really do anything. and i’m starting to get really tired of it. everyday is the same. we go to work, come home, watch a movie then go to sleep even on the weekends (in his defense he works a lot and doesn’t always have weekends off)

but even the days we have off it’s usually always the same thing. it would be nice to at least drink on our days off or do blow and jam out to music. it’s like i long for that one day once a month where we can stay up late and party. (don’t get me wrong i enjoy the chill times with my bf where we just relax and watch movies) not for every fucking day tho. i get it he’s just being responsible but sometimes he’s such a buzz kill and it pisses me off when i just want to have a fun night with him and all he does is want to go to sleep.

earlier i was cleaning and listening to music with him which took some convincing because he just wanted to chill and go to bed. then a lil bit later i was singing towards him and dancing and he just told me to stop. i get it he’s tired but i was just trying to have fun and i’m sensitive so that hurt.