Kinda scared. Don't know what to do. Started out as a scratch on my septum which got infected resulting in a hole. Continued usage and suspected rhinotillexomania has resulted in me being able to stick my finger up to the second knuckle on my first finger.

Only indulged once in a blue moon a handful of times until summer of 2022 when I bought my first bag. Scratched my septum in November of 2022. Due to continued usage, at the time 1-3 times a week and 2gs at most but I naively thought if I use the other nostril it'd be fine and wouldn't effect the side I scratched. This and along with picking resulted in it becoming infected. I went to the doctor and got an antibiotic cream which made the scab come off of my septum resulting in a deviation.

Went back to the doctor and received antibiotic pills, took those twice a day for 2 weeks and on the last day of the antibiotics I blew my nose in a chunk came out. I stuck a Q-Tip up my nose to investigate and discovered that it went all the way through. This was December of 2022.

Haven't really told anyone and have definitely never shown anyone this before. Scared to go to the doctor and worried if I do I will break some record and be a medical anomaly. Haven't measured it yet as I'm not ready to know the answer.

This can literally happen because you went to do a rip, bumped your bill on the table and scratched your septum. And it can happen and get worse fast. Especially if you pick your nose. I realize that my nose should probably be collapsed, and I'm thankful somehow it hasn't.

I have almost no sense of smell or taste. Sometimes if I want to taste something I blow air through my nose a bit and I can taste for a second. When I blow my nose the only way I can do it effectively is if I stick my finger in my nose and block one side, then I can get the gigantic terrible boogies that block my nose so much that I can't breathe, or move back and forth when I try too. Breathing through my nose is almost impossible most of the time. And if I can it's slow and noisy. I also snore now. Ask any questions you like. Thank you for reading