I just find it weird for myself that this is one of my fave fetishes. Some people would even say that it rooted from some childhood trauma? But yeah to describe it further, it's not just the exhibitionism part of it or displaying my thing because tbh, I'm insecure of my small asian dick. It's more of the action part, like some CM groping guys without their consent or like forcibly like manhandled by CM or getting tied and guys playing with the unwilling sub. That's why I paid 30 bucks for an access to the CMNM website before. Can you imagine like I would masturbate 3 to 4x a day for a month just to get my money's worth. Lol.. Also right now I'm subscribed to STHJ. The part where the old guy, fully clothed, perverted looking, is a slowly jerking off a tied up guy, helpless, and can only c*m if the sub asks for permission and is granted, is what gets me... Otherwise, he would do post cum torture or ruined orgasm thing to the guy who came without permission. Most of the models too, I think, are straight and just needs some cash so they are kinda forced to do it...

Like the common denominator is if I see somebody forced or helpless, like molested (really sorry for the term), by some clothed old or mature men or any dom actually.

Idk if I could be the sub irl, idk if I could be the tormentor or dom in the situation either, like I'm too scared to do my fantasies irl either. Maybe I can be just a plain watcher/audience in these kinds of situations.

Who has the same fetish like mine? Maybe there's a psych major in here who can further explain these fetishes? Lol thanks!