Things changed about 6 years ago. I was 16 and decided to get my first job. Things went downhill fast. I paid for my own car and gas, paid for my minutes on my phone. It's no lie my parents are dirt poor. At this age I became a mother to my sister. I drover her to school and after school activities. Took her to dr appointments etc. I've done this until she got her license this year.

After I graduated high school in 2011 (and moved out) when school started back up I was expected to take my sister to school still. Keep in mind I had college classes (12 credit hours with anatomy and physiology) and a full time job too. I had to drive 20 mins out of my way everyday to get her. Had to pay for gas for her to get to school. This took it's toll on me, and I was forced to drop out of college because of my GPA. I now have to pay out of pocket because I am no longer eligable for fasfa. I have since had medical issues that have requred me to quit working and through cause and effect move back in with my parents until I can get healthy or get disability (doctor reccomended)

What pisses me off is my mom has only worked for maybe 8 years of her life. She's almost 40. She says when dad gets paid it's their money. She blows through it. She's overweight and doesn't want to count calories, says she will workout but never does. It's annoying. I gained weight from my medical issues and have been busting ass trying to lose it. She bitches about being poor but refuses to work. It has to be a bank job or no job. She is in my opinion selfish.

Nothing agaisnt my sister, but she has ruined my life to an extent. I have had to pay for her way to school, had to quit college because of me being mommy to her, the list goes on. I do not have resentment twords my sister. However, I do twords my mom. I do not want kids. If I can't deal with a teenager who is my sister, how could I deal with a screaming infant?? I feel I have the issues I do now because of Karma. I should have put my foot down before it was medically nessecarry for me to be "lazy" and unable to continue to care for my sister like a mom does.

I AM NOT TRYING TO BASH MY MOTHER. I am more or less venting off the last 6 years. After seeing her lack of parenting forcing me to be mommy I am just fed up. I have had more than enough for a lifetime. Thanks mom for making me realize I am childfree along with the risks that go along with my medical issues. My grandma even told me I am more like a mother to my sister. She's even said mom isn't doing her job.I love my mother but damn.