TW: abuse, racism, trauma, misogyny, violence

Anybody else CF because their childhood was extremely stressful?

Childhood was by far the most stressful time of my entire life. I absolutely hated school, was harassed there by sexual predators and suffered from extreme racism and misogyny from the other students and teachers. At home things weren't better: my parents were extremely physically, sexually, verbally and psychologically abusive people and we lived isolated from others so there was very little community. My parents forced me to babysit my brother from the time I was 9 - my brother hit me, insulted me and once nearly killed me by pushing me into icy cold water (I got lucky I landed on a boat that was docked nearby). As a child and teenager, I was anxious and paranoid, severely depressed, constantly having to deal with other people's problems. I was so stressed out of my mind by everything that I developed severe chronic pain, digestive problems, addictions and PTSD.

Now I'm an adult and for once in my life, I'm in a relatively stable place, surrounded by supportive people (all the assholes have been cut off, including all family), in an extremely flexible career that gives me decent money and a lot of free time (I can take breaks whenever I want and take time off whenever I want). I intentionally chose my flexible career and chose to be CF because I wanted to have a lot of time to myself that I could spend doing whatever I wanted - time I never had when I was a child. I'm so happy having so much time to myself while I'm still young enough (I'm in my 20s) to nap whenever, pursue passions and hobbies, go on trips, accomplish some childhood dreams - all things I would've loved as a child but never got. So I'm now giving it to myself and I would never allow parenthood to ruin any of that for me.