This isn’t really Childe related. I just felt like I wanted to vent, and this community has some of the nicest people ever. I’ve been in r/childemains for months and this subreddit is a very comforting place for me.

I started playing since Venti’s original banner.

I’ve been very, very exhausted with all that is happening lately. I was so very excited for Kokomi’s release, her demo was a banger, her design is one of the best IMO. But with all this negativity around I can’t help but feel disappointed. In mihoyo, and myself for making this game such a big part of my life. It first started with Yoimiya.

Around Klee’s rerun, after I failed my 50/50, I saw Yoimiya’s leaks. God she was beautiful. Her ult is beautiful. Her design is gorgeous. I wanted her immediately. And so I saved my guarantee for about a month. Everyday I wake up and feel motivated because it’s one day closer to Yoimiya’s release. And for her to turn out like the way she is right now, for Mihoyo to not give a single shit about her easily fixable problems, even after we contacted them day after day, only to get automated responses, it makes me very upset. I felt like I was punished for not liking and pulling Kazuha/Ayaka instead. But I tried to cope still, I double crowned her and she remains one of my favourites besides Childe.

And now, the anniversary rewards, I don’t even want to know what Mihoyo was thinking. As an artist I feel so humiliated. Artists/cosplayers spend so much time, effort and even money to create stuff, only to get rewarded with what, a CHANCE to win not even a pull? And I don’t even want to talk about Kokomi.

Perhaps it is my fault. But this game has quite affected me. Disappointment after disappointment. I only spend for welkin and BP every month. I am nothing compared to the whales that spent thousands on this Genshin.

I know I can play other games. But no other games has such lovable characters for me. Other gachas I’ve tried are just moving PNGs. I’ve tried Honkai but god I just couldn’t understand anything at all. I just hope mihoyo gets their shit together. And with all the other things happening in twitter, such as people calling Mihoyo racist for “whitewashing” Kaeya in the official concert art, or ableist for saying the r word in Honkai, I felt like I was such a disgrace for being a Genshin player. All I wanted was to see Childe in Snezhnaya. I just wanted to play with Yoimiya. I just wanted to be with Kokomi without everyone shitting on me for pulling her.

If you read all this way, thank you. Have a good day and continue to enjoy our favourite russian.