Hello out there! Thanks for taking a moment to read this. I decided recently that I needed a change in my life. I can’t say it’s been a massively dramatic change, but a subtle one, one that only I really know about. I’ve decided to embrace who I am completely: mentally, physically, emotionally, and (yes, you guessed it, Reddit) sexually.

I decided I wanted to post this journal entry, of sorts, here because I want to share with people who are around me. Not only am I looking for people to discuss life with but I want to do it with fellow Chicagoans.

I should start by saying I’m not from here. I moved to Chicago for work a couple of years ago. I’m from NY. I had a brief stint in Philadelphia. I had just gotten out of a lengthy relationship with a partner who was everything I wanted her to be, except for a few key things that ended the relationship. When I moved to Philadelphia I saw this woman who challenged me mentally. She used to ask me really direct questions about my emotions and things I said in passing, etc. We used to shoot the shit all the time and god could we fuck. She used to lick this spot right at the back of my balls. And she’d get me to the point of cumming and would put me over the edge with a swift deepthroat. I ended things with her as I was leaving.

I came to Chicago and dated a new woman who totally was a different type of person. She was immensely smarter than me and I’m no slouch. She just lacked some emotional intelligence. One of the things she introduced me to was anal play. She eased her way toward fingering me for about a year until she was giving me head one day and just kept moving her hands down and back. It felt so good that I asked her to finger me. It all delivered.

I had a fling that ended recently and I failed to really vocalize my sexual desires because she couldn’t accomplish the basics. I decided not to persist.

Since then I’ve really been considering myself and my life. I have accomplished a great deal academically and professionally. My career is in full swing and I am satisfied with my status. There’s always more: money, projects, people (good/bad), and problems. Physically I have health goals and things I want to do (like run an ultra marathon), I’m working towards that. I’ll briefly digress momentarily to help weed out folks who didn’t read this whole entry, you’ll see at the end that I ask for a photo. I don’t want to see that. Please just send a message. But be willing at some point to share a photo. I’m posting this all in Chicago so I can’t meet people for real. Ok back to your regularly scheduled programming, lovers. I think I have insane goals because I just want to see if I can do it. I’m not competing, I don’t care about winning, I just want to try! Emotionally, I’m not in a great place. I’ve been feeling so high-strung for a while. It ebbs and flows, different years feel different. But since about February, I’ve just been in need of a good vacation and a break from the norm. I’ve spent some time caring for myself academically, professionally, and even physically. What needs work is my emotional state and my sexual life.

Step one is eliminating some stress. I want to relax, feel good, enjoy my time, laugh, cry, talk. I want to fuck, be fucked, get tired, sleep and do it all over again. Get high, drink, run, hike, travel, draw, etc.

Step two is appreciating what I have! Happy and healthy family and friends, a roof over my head, and 3 meals a day. I get to wake up early in the morning and watch the sunrise on a morning run! I get to go to places in this country where I can sit on the edge of a cliff and look out over vistas of unnamed mountains. I get to practice silence and the sound of life in the trees. I get to vote and participate in my government with all of you (I should mention at this point that I’m a solid left wing democrat, with a side of pragmatic cynicism). I get to love and feel loved. I get to make my own decisions about my life.

Step three is feeling excited about finding more things to add to step two.

Step four is finding a partner who wants to share her life with me, to experience everything I love in life. The most important thing for me is that we can be ourselves.

So why not try this place to find a partner? Maybe it’ll work. I’m hopeful.

But I need her to understand a few things about me: I’m not that affectionate, I’m pretty quiet, and I like some time alone.

But when we’re together, I want her to be a best friend. I also want her to understand my sexual acceptance. I love coming on Reddit. I love pretty kinky porn. I want her to watch with me. I sometimes want to have threesomes. Sometimes I want her to want to suck my dick more than I want her to. I want her to spit on that thang. I want her to eat my ass. I want to eat hers. I want us to use toys, fill all openings, and feel incredible. I want us to share an orgasm or two. I want her to encourage my fantasies, enjoy my bisexuality. And I frankly would prefer if she were bi too.

If we’re not fucking like rabbits we must be doing one of the following: sleeping, eating, reading, watching a movie, talking, making out, traveling, cooking, running, anything else that we appreciate and makes us happy. See step two above.

If my best friend is out there I hope she sees this. And I hope she decides to message me. If you’ve read all of this please send me a picture of your elbow fold and make it look like a butt.

Please introduce yourself and tell me what makes you unique and what you like to do in your free time!