Found this today. I'm not okay. I'm disgusted. Completely and totally disgusted. All he cares about is sex. I tell him he hurts me by the things he does and says he tells me he does it cuz "say he does it so he does it to prove me right" I hate my life. I lost my job, my home, he broke two vehicles if mine, TV's, phones, you name it I have lost it and now I literally live in a trailer at 33 in his grandparents yard with our kids cuz 5yrs he wouldn't work.

"Loves better than anyone you ever met" If by love you mean always saying the most mean hurtful shit, never being there for the important stuff (like the stay at the hospital after I gae birth) or leaving "for the night" two weeks before we had to move to spend a night at his grandparents to get the place "ready for us" and never coming back to help pack or move .... I have a million of these but you catch the drift..

But this is my fault. If I just "fuck him we'd be fine." Fuck my feelings. Fuck how I feel as person. Fuck not being a partner. He uses all my money and resources on himself and leaves nothing for me and the kids. I'm stuck here. I have no money no job and in a seriously so over it. Why are ppl like this. Truly interested in a larger story I posted it before this in r/relationship_advice asking for real advice and how to get out.

I know I need to leave. I have no family no friends no nothing to turn too. I have no car. I'm 40min drive from my home city in a place I never lived before surrounded by a manchild nd his family who just bash me and put me down behind my back everyday. I don't wanna be here anymore. This place but also this fucking world. If I didn't have kids tonight I'd fianally see my dead best friends again cuz my soul is just soooo tired from all the trauma.