Before I start, I know I should leave, I'm scared to and we have a one year old.

But here goes.. my husband has been caught multiple times sending and receiving videos, images and messages from other women online and I have got down trodden so many times

He says it's just porn to him but him sending videos and images of himself as well as receiving them doesn't seem like porn to me

His argument is it's not cheating at he isn't actively sleeping with them

I've told him before I don't want him doing it and he still continues to do it, downloading apps secretly and going on dodgy sites to do it

I know I need to leave, he wants to try couples counselling but I honestly don't have any fight left in me.. 12 years we've been together and he does not respect my feelings on this subject and completely disregards me

The first weekend we have had since I found out and he's gone out to meet some work mates while I'm at home with our child.

I honestly don't know the point of this post but just feel like I have no one to turn to.