Just curious…

I feel like at this point in my life, I’ve been with enough women, to conclude that they all are cheaters.

They will swear up and down that nothing would ever or has ever happened, but I have found so many inconsistencies with the stories the women I date have that I swear they’ve all cheated.

I feel like I’ve been living an utter lie for the past 10 years with my current girl.

I don’t know if all I ever do is date nymphos or women with hyper-sexuality, but I’ve come to the conclusion that my current partner literally cheats every single chance she gets and embarrasses my whole family.

But it’s always me putting a puzzle together on my own and then having a sudden epiphany.

Either I am extremely paranoid and insecure, which for a long time now I’ve been working on that, and I feel I’m not at all at this point, or she cheats every chance she gets.

It’s crazy. I’m literally at the point where I’m thinking the problem is me. Not me as in insecure and paranoid, but me as in I have this ideal belief that my girl is my girl and she would never cheat on me or do something anything like that.

It’s like I’m being forced in my head to let go of that view of the world, and to change my perspective on relationships.

To a new perspective. One of separating a partnership and relationship from sexuality and sexual encounters.

I can say with full confidence that if I adopted this view, or I was raised with this view, my life would be 100% less chaotic and far more worry free.

But when I try to adopt this view I just feel so “all by myself” and alone in the world.

But it leads me to wonder, is that how a lot of people are actually treating relationships, and my own ideals are my real detriment?

Just curious.