So my wife was on vacation and I was a bad boy. It had been a while since I have been caged and I was supposed to put it on before she left. I didn’t….then.

I did a couple days into her vacation. She’s now been back since Monday but she has not punished me yet but she says it’s coming. I’ve had my kids this week.

So I know she’s planning to beat my ass hard. The last time she did was right before we stopped for several months. It hurt and I did not like it. I had kind of a break down but also realized it was more of a breakthrough, because for the first time I was scared/feared getting punished.

Well it had been long enough not being in the game to make sure I’m good when I’m supposed to and now I remember that fear.

Just so you all know, I’m ok with what she’s going to do, but I’m scared of it. Question is, how do I prepare to go through something that is really going to be bad? (I’ve already told her that I’m ok with it but am going to need lots of care in middle and aftercare as well)