I am a student. In this epoch of my life, I’m supposed to be studying and to be efficient at work. Desire with the intent to achieve release is a distraction and numbs my mind.

I am asexual. I do not give pleasure. I will never cause someone else’s orgasm. Therefore, any act that I do that will result in my own orgasm is selfish and wrong. I.e. I do not make anyone cum, therefore I do not deserve to cum either.

I am submissive. Achieving pleasure is a dominant act. It is not my place. I feel deep submission and peace in the state of denial. Why would I ruin these lovely, soothing feelings?

I am happier this way. Hornier, needier, tinglier - but also happier. And isn’t that what life is all about?

I am content. This is all I need. The exhilarating joy of an edge and the soothing grip of a chastity device around my bits. What else could I want?

I am destined to be this way. It is not for me. It is not for *me*. If I was supposed to orgasm I would’ve experienced romantic and sexual interests in others. I have not.