[49f4m]#US/Midwest. #IRL

*** please read in full. I will not entertain chatting with you unless you are willing to photo verify yourself, and I will also. I will not sext either. This is about building a long term for me.

Please respond with a bit about your self, how long you have been in the lifestyle, your Dom style. I need someone who will communicate with me, more than yes or no or two word responses. I've put a lot of thought and effort into this post, I would appreciate the same in your response. ☺️

Having said that- I believe I'm a sub leaning switch. I don't have any irl experience yet, but have explored my submissive side more than my dominant side.

As a sub: I need a caregiver who will love me despite the fact I am SEVERELY broken. I have massive self esteem issues and insecurities. Depression and anxiety make these worse. I can tell you more about my history in a private message.

I am looking for a soft /pleasure Daddy Dom/caregiver to comfort me, train me, and help build me. I tend to fall hard and fast, and as I need a lot of reassurance and positive reinforcement, I am a very "clingy" girl. That's not to say I can't be patient... As long as I know you can't chat for a moment I'm ok with waiting. I MUST have good morning and good night texts.

I love pet names and definitely flourish with praise and compliments. I crave affection, affirmations and touch.

I want my Daddy to WANT to hold me when I cry or have my bad anxiety days. To WANT to reassure me that I will be ok. I want him to WANT to be someone to lift me up, encourage me. I want my Daddy to sit under the stars with me, to laugh with me on good days and to encourage me when I am unsure. 

I want nothing more than to belong to someone knowing he loves me for who I am, faults and all. I don't think anyone has ever loved me, not really. As I am looking for long term- leading to marriage, a connection is a must. Please be patient with me. I promise I'll be a good girl. 

I would love for my daddy to spoil me, as I have never had that. I've always had to pay for my own dates. It would be really nice to be shown appreciation and affection.

I'm not into age play, at least I don't think so, but do like the daddy /caregiver dynamic of giving over some contol and being taken care of. I like pet names, praise and VERY much want to please my partner. I find that I take commands better if they are phrased like "daddy needs you to..." Or "be a good girl for daddy and ..." Rather than outright commands.i am NOT A slave, nor do I want to be. I want to be submissive out of my love for you. My desire to please you.

I like to adult color, shetch occasionally, work with clay, crochet, diamond paint, artsy stuff. I read- true crime, fictional crime novels, fantasy. I like nerdy and geeky things: scifi, some PC games, board games. I also like competition shows, especially anything artistic or hand made related. Horror movies are great, but I may need to hold on to you, Daddy, when I get too scared.

I have always been a "pleaser" and often didnt reach climax because my partner just didn't care.  I've also been hurt during sex( like have to see the doctor hurt), with my partner not caring enough to see if I was ok.

I am a white woman who is short 5'4" and fat. I really, really hate myself right now, and need your help to see the good in myself, daddy.

I find that even though I'm overweight, I am attracted to white younger (37-54) men with thin to lightly muscular builds. I prefer dark hair, and a goatee and dimples are a huge turn on. I quit smoking and cannot stand the smell now.

I am extremely vanilla and would like to explore some kinks.  I find I like being told what to do in bed, I like the idea of forced orgasms/ orgasm control/denial, some light bondage may be ok, once I learn to trust. Also open to possibly of light spankings/impact play/ sensory play. I may be open to some anal play, with the right daddy. While I  may be open including a third party, I do NOT want to be the third. I want to be the most important person to my daddy. I think the free use term- if I'm understanding that correctly could be appealing too.  Dirty talk definitely a turn on. I don't really know what else is out there; as I said I'm pretty vanilla.

Hard NO's- fecal, blood, children, animals,breast binding, accompanying me to the bathroom, controlling bathroom time, vomit,fisting, severe degregation- I have enough self esteem issues, sucking dick after anal, or being fucked after anal-without a thorough washing are also a no ( if you are the right daddy. )! 

As have never had children, I have always been tight, and since it's been so VERY long, well it's super tight now. I have also been told I am very good at giving head. Again, I've always been a pleaser. I should point out I don't usually swallow, but have done so when I loved my partner. So if we get there, I would be willing to do this if it pleases you, daddy.

I have been alone a LONG time. I haven't been kissed or touched in so so long.  I would like this to lead into long term/marriage. I want to find my best friend and confidant, someone who knows everything about me, and who shares everything about themselves to me.  and if that person happens to want to control me and care for me...well I think I'm  ok with that. I do want an IRL relationship, and would be willing to relocate in time. I have a bit of a complicated living arrangement, and will discuss with you privately, Daddy.

If I maybe seem like what you are looking for, Daddy, please find me. I'm so lonely. It's been so long since I've been kissed, touched, held, and we'll, you know, Daddy. Please find me. I promise I'll be a good girl. All I want is to be loved.

Please come find me, my forever daddy. Please help me see the good in myself. Please introduce me to this kinky world.

As a Domme:

While I would definitely like to explore being a Domme more, it's not vital to who I am. I only discovered this side of me bc the last "Dom" I had wanted me to top him in chat. (We never made it to meet irl)