Introduction My journey into the world of kink has been deeply transformative. It’s not just about the play—it’s about reclaiming my voice, my power, and my identity. After enduring significant trauma, including an abusive marriage and battles with anorexia and ARFID, I’m now in a place where I can begin to heal and explore myself in ways that feel empowering and safe. This manual serves as a guide for understanding my dynamics, preferences, boundaries, and values. It’s a living document that reflects my ongoing journey and growth.

Where I Am Now I’m leaning deeply into my submissive side—it feels like the truest reflection of where I am in my life. Right now, my focus is on receiving rather than giving. This isn’t selfish; it’s survival. For the first time, I am free of active abuse and can prioritize my healing. Additionally, I’m fighting for recovery from anorexia and ARFID. This journey is about finding strength in vulnerability and learning to nourish myself—emotionally and physically.

Relationship Dynamics Primary Partner: I seek someone who embodies humor, sass, and unconditional love. This partner should provide emotional stability and appreciate my complexities while supporting me on my path of growth and discovery. Play Partners: When the connection feels right, play partners may fulfill aspects of my bratty side or my craving for exploration and playful rebellion. Little Side: My little side is a deeply personal part of me. It’s not about being treated like a child but rather nurturing a part of myself that feels lost and needs encouragement, validation, and nonjudgmental care. My little side resonates with comfort items from childhood, the nickname "Baby" (inspired by Dirty Dancing), and the quote, "No one puts Baby in a corner." This aspect of me requires safety, trust, and readiness to share.