Hullo, my name is Byrne, and that title is not an exaggeration. I have never experienced genuine nurturing from anyone, and I don't even know what it looks or feels like.

I'm looking for a caregiver who wants to be the first to provide that, someone who wants to nurture and challenge me to bring out my best self. I'm not looking for a primarily sexual or superficial relationship, but something deep and intimate. If that sounds like a nice fit, please continue, as I have a lot to explain because I've been through a lot

I'm an HSP little-switch, basically just a switch with a sub lean, and I've lived in various toxic homes with covert narcissists, legitimate psychopaths and sociopaths, and general jerks and bullies. I've suffered every type of abuse except one, and as a result I have PTSD, CPTSD, potentially OCD, health anxiety, depression, insomnia, and bipolar disorder.

Right now specifically I am struggling immensely. I'm living with my toxic family again after getting away from awful, abusive roommates in 2023, and our home has extremely difficult living conditions for me. During summer, my room gets upwards of 83 degrees, and during winter, it gets as low as 62. This drastically affects my ability to sleep and be comfortable, and on top of this, I'm often battling hay fever, and can go through an entire box of tissues in a day, multiple days a week, and this makes my ability to sleep even worse, on top of all the mental health struggles, too. My depression and anxiety have been particularly bad here, and the insomnia goes without saying. I get anywhere from 2 to 4 hours of sleep at a time, although I sometimes have good nights where I sleep for 4 hours twice in a row, but those are very rare... I am very tired and very depressed all the time now, and I've slowly lost the will to keep going over the course of the year. There are many nights where I consider giving up, and my health has faltered more and more, too, from all the physical stress and fatigue.

I've reached out to every mental health service under the sun in my area, and ultimately they cannot help. The issue is my environment and lack of personal support for my struggles, and most services either put me around other people that trigger me, get me abused or disregarded by healthcare workers, don't yield any helpful results, or have huge waitlists. At this point, I believe that making friends is the best way to get through this, but most people I reach out to and try to befriend are either physically unavailable for quality time, turn out to be energy vampires and use me for their own gain without giving in return, just aren't compatible because of differences in interests and hobbies, or lack spiritual and emotional depth.

So... All I can do is keep trying and hope for the best. Like something has to give eventually, right? Either I meet someone or find a group that helps bring me peace and calm during this storm, or my body gives out from struggling too hard and that's it... I'm trying my best, and that's enough, no matter how ugly and horrible my life gets. What keeps me going most is all the goals I have, but those are best left for conversations in the future :3

Physically, I'm 5'5", African-American, wear glasses, and like to exercise despite being an avid gamer. I'm HSP, so I love all things pleasant and indulgent. I'm an avid foodie, like aromatherapy, use baby lotion because it smells nice, wear bright and expressive clothes, and like to do yoga and just live a very sensual life overall. I'm also really into astrology and energy stuff, and I'm an ENFJ-A personality type, the teacher/protagonist... But as a sub, that means I'm a student/himbo :P

I have fairytale fantasies about MDLB, like I really like the idea of being a sun prince being doted on and coddled by a love goddess. I want to have long calls at night that help me feel safe that turn into sleep calls when we both feel sleepy, I want to go on playdates in the MMOs I play, I want to ramble about all my fave things and be intently listened to the same way I listen to other people, I want to have my diet and activities be curated for my own health and safety, and I really want to be put deep into littlespace a bunch since I've never experienced it before.

And if it's not obvious already, I'm into ABDL, too. It started out as a fetish but once I discovered CGL, it became like a supplemental addition to being a little that I am more than okay with. In fact, I said I don't want a connection that's primarily sexual, but I'm a very hyper-sexual being from all the trauma and being left to my own devices on the internet waaay too much growing up. I've been cutting back lately, but my libido is immensely powerful when I'm not struggling super hard.

I don't really have that many physical preferences, but I do love soft and chubby bodies. The more there is to snuggle and kiss, the happier I am. I also adore being the shorter one, but that's more an emotional preference, since it helps me feel safe and owned, and realistically I don't mind being the same height. The only other preference is I like the idea of being younger, but as long as there's emotional wisdom and spiritual depth, age doesn't really matter.

And lastly... I am very inexperienced. My last committed relationship was in 2016, and lasted a little less than a year, and I've been single and touch-starved ever since. If I seem eager and clingy, please forgive me for I am an extrovert who has been socially isolated most of his life ; _;

If I seem like a good fit for you, my Discord is on my profile, just shoot me a friend request and lmk how you felt or what you thought, and tyvm for bearing with me and reading to the end, byeeee 💙