Hello everyone! I'm Jake and I'm 34. I'm a transman, 100% on the binary. I have had top surgery and have been on hormones since 2012 so I have typical male body hair, a full (very red) beard, and a masculine voice. There is really not much about me that is feminine apart from my pussy and clit. Yes, that's what I call them, you can too. I don't much like calling my clit a cock - other transguys might, but not me shrugs. Misgendering and feminization (including sissification) are absolute hard limits. This is long, but really covers almost everything that folx need to know about me. <3

I'm currently single and looking for something long term that doesn't just revolve around me shoving things in my holes and sending you pictures. TBH don't expect (or ask for) sexy time or pictures right away. I'd really like to build trust before moving into sexual things. I'm re-evaluating my kinks so please be open to exploring things that I used to like, but maybe don't like any more (ex. urethral/anal penetration, pee). I am trying to figure out edging/ruining, so help with that would be great - or just long-term denial in general. I'm also down to try new things for me that you like. I'm not super masochistic, so pain play should fairly limited (ex. spanking ass/pussy as punishment should be fine).

I've tried "normal" bdsm relationships and they're too mean and make me feel bad. I need a Caregiver who wants to help me be good and celebrates with me when I am. I'm more of a middle than a little, but I definitely need someone to guide me and make sure I'm doing my homework and chores, and drinking enough water and eating right. I'd say my little/middle age ranges between 5 - 11, but I'm not small all the time. I am not interested in diapers, but I am interested in my CG making sure that I'm healthy in as many ways as they would like. I like having to show I've had enough water by letting my CG watch (eventually) me pee and check its color. I'm open/interested to having to talk about my poop habits. I obviously need an adult make sure my temperature, weight, and body measurements are all healthy...and like any good boy, I know that temperatures should be taken either anally or urethrally (or both to make sure I did it right). I have a hard time with keeping up with my household chores and I have some pretty important homework that I NEED to do but keep putting off (aka the application essays and stuff for the PhD program I want to get into). I need a CG that helps me set realistic goals and encourages me to get things done. I definitely need someone who is patient and wants a middle who heavily relies on them for most things. I really want someone to whom I can give up most responsibility for regular decisions (i.e. shower temperature, food, weight, pee output) and at-home activities (including time for exercising, chores, etc.). I do have a stuffie (he's a fox named Kitsu) and I like doing coloring books sometimes. That being said, I need a CG that can emotionally tuck me in at night so I don't have scary dreams and makes me feel like a big boy when I've done my chores. I don't want to feel bad or sad or lonely, I want to be a good boy and make my CG proud.

Note: I'm not going to consider sending nsfw pics until we've established trust and built a connection. I'm not really comfortable with sending face pics probably for a very long time. Pics and videos ARE going to happen, just not right away. Please don't ask: I'll send them when I'm ready.

A couple non-kinky notes about me: most of my spine is fused so back pain is a regular non-fun part of my life and I'm neurodivergent (I have anxiety, depression, and autism). I go to the doctor and am in therapy but I want to be upfront that aftercare, kindness, patience, and sometimes a bit of flexibility on your part will be necessary. I like a lot of communication (I tend to be clingy once I like you) and lean towards having a more gentle/constant interaction dynamic. I don't like mean 'all the time' rules that I just have to follow without any direct interaction with my CG. I like having to show things for inspection so I can be told how good of a boy I am - and also because little boys don't always know what's best for them and they need a grown up to look and see.

I'm a pretty straight-forward person (#autism), if something is wrong I'll say it. I'd like to expect the same from you. I don't play games. I have a Master's degree and I work full-time so I'm definitely a (mostly haha) functional, intelligent person. I might not be able to play at work (I can usually message if things aren't busy), but I can give basically the rest of my day to you (as long as you give me time to read or play my video games sometimes). I'm mostly going to be available in my late afternoon-night time (Pacific time) on days I work, and all day on my off days (usually Thursday/Friday) - if your awake/active times don't match this, please save us both the sadness of being a good match but not being able to match schedules.

I currently shave my armpits and pussy and am in the process of getting permanent genital hair removal. I am looking to improve my physical body - I can do home body weight activities (including yoga), so exercise control is definitely negotiable. I do have a gym membership but have physical limitations we can discuss). I am also interested in strengthening my willpower and self-discipline but not sure how to approach that - not a requirement for a CG dynamic, but a "nice to have". I do struggle with not having enough "spoons" some days, so a CG who can find compromises to keep me healhty but also work within my ability. I don’t have extra for things like getting more toys, but I already have a few fun things to work with. I prefer cis women, but am open to the right trans*/NB/male person as well.

If there is a kink you know you have, or something you want to try...just ask! If its a hard limit (but is asked for in good faith and with genuine interest), I'm usually pretty good about finding an alternative that's similar.

I have learned, over the years, that I prefer people who communicate regularly and frequently. If you're not going to be available for a stretch, just let me know so I know what's happening rather than leave me to panic and self-blame. Also, looking for folx between 21-50yo, but 25-40 are preferred. Similarly, I prefer more athletic bodies for my dominant (mostly important for any potential in-person time), but open to more - it's more about the mental/emotional connection. I am not willing to relocate. I'm open to poly/monog Dominants but any partners must be aware of our dynamic.

I would really like to find someone local (SoCal) to play with in person (eventually), but I'm open to the right online relationship if you are available mostly in my afternoon/evenings (GMT-8). If you actually read this far 1) I appreciate you more than you know, and 2) please let me know your favorite pizza topping(s) - replies without pizza toppings will be ignored.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading!!