Hi all, I'm Emme (like the letter). I have little true experience with this dynamic...I was first introduced when I stumbled upon a ddlg blog back when tumblr was a thing. I immediately started to identify with the idea of being a little....but if you ever spent time with me irl you might not immediately see that. I can come across as confident and capable. But in reality I'm so often petrified by it all. The world is a big and scary place and I so often find myself lost in it all. I do what I need to make ends meet but struggle with things outside of those.

My last relationship...which ended earlier this year, was with another trans woman. She had never really heard of ddlg or caregivers or littles...but when we started talking she made me believe she could be my 'mommy'. The thing is tho in the relationship it more became the opposite. She suffered from anxiety and self-hatred and lived in a husk or shell...and in that relationship even tho I called her mommy I was the one holding her hand and helping her grow and accomplish things she had long been putting off. And I learned to love taking care of her and be her knight in shining armour instead of her princess. I know it wasn't exactly like this...but it seemed once she had....grown a certain bit she decided I wasn't right for her. And gods that hurts.

So I'm not sure exactly that I'm ready to go diving into any other sort of committed relationship rn. Which is more why I lead with looking for friendship and conversation....I want to explore this dynamic with maybe people who have a better understanding of it than I do...

But in the end....I also have always always wanted a lasting relationship. I am codependent...and I feel so empty and hurt when I'm alone. I find myself in situations too big for just myself. And I want someone who will always be there to hold my hand. So if we talk and you are interested in something more....as long as we vibe I'd probably love that. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Anyway. Thanks for reading this. Hope some of you reach out...id love to talk with people.