Can't sleep tonight, so composing this ad instead... Come here sit with me for a bit and let's stargaze together 🌠- care to share a cup of hot chocolate? ☕ Here, wanna take ALL the marshmallows? I hate them, so they’re all yours if you want🤭

OK, so… It’s sooo scary to put yourself out there, every single time, and soooo hard to compose these silly descriptions.

Should we really talk about all that serious stuff, anyway? How about we just chat about the mysteries of universe instead? Or just stare at the sky together?

What, a bit later?😔 Fiiiine - down to business it is then!

What am I doing here?

That's an interesting question for someone with a disorganized (aka "clingy-avoidant") attachment style lol

✅The bigger part of me longs to meet my very own, best Daddy in the whole world🥰, my best friend and my soulmate, someone to be a loyal partner in crime to - to delete this page and live together forever, happily ever after, till we’re old and grey (preferably handcuffed to him or smth, for good measure 🤭)

✅Now, that pesky other part of me 🙄- that one is always on guard, “just chatting to these nice Daddies from Reddit for now, no pressure”, ready to say goodbye and run for my life the moment I feel even slightly vulnerable. 

And boy, does this whole DDlg thing often make me feel vulnerable.

Ufff…  But, I just know that someday, somehow, with the right person this f*cking spell will be broken and this annoying tug-of-war will end - 

And until then I guess I’ll just keep updating my ads, trust my Inner Being to be still leading me in this convoluted way and do my best to at least enjoy the journey😂

What type of relationship do I want?

Well, as I've been chatting with all these amazing Daddies here, I've come to understand that Stricter Daddies are in huge demand nowadays 🤭 I’ve been told Softer Daddies often have to adjust, because many Littles want someone stricter ⛓

Well, this is absolutely NOT the case with me. Quite the contrary🤗

❤ Bit by bit, I’ve discovered that my Little clearly has a “type”: she is into warm, loving, indulging type of Daddy Doms (I don’t mind at all, if he’s also a bit possessive and controlling though - a perfect mix, if you ask me!!🤤) 

❤ She wants someone NOT STRICT, but praising, holding, loving, hugging … supremely kind and affectionate. In one word, a real Papa Bear!🤭

❤Someone who will pamper and treasure her while still being fully in charge and in control, up to a TPE of sorts (just not sure yet to what extent). 

❤ Basically, I imagine a sickeningly happy, loving "good little girl" / "affectionate Papa Bear" relationship with minimum rules / no punishments, and TONS of mutual love, care and cuddles instead! 

Rather than the more "popular" strict/discipline kind.

I want to hang on my Daddy's every word because he's my hero and I'm obsessed with him 🥰, not because I'll be punished otherwise. I wanna listen to him just because Daddy knows better (duuh!), and because I trust him. 

(oh I perfectly understand how discipline can be a huge turn on for so many of us Littles - just somehow not to me 🤷‍♀️)

It's a bit like with real parenting - any child basically belongs to their parents, and a very little 5yo child - even more so. But there're strict parents, and then, there're those rare “cool” ones - ones that all other kids envy 😅 Well, I for one dream about an unusual “cool” Daddy for myself, you know? 🤭

(No offense meant for stricter Daddies of course!!🙏🤗)

After all, we all know BDSM is sort of like a huge menu at a restaurant - 

Well, I for one am very much into the DS part of the menu, and you can take away all the other letters, thank you very much🤭 Well the “B” might work too though, I suspect, but that’s for another discussion

You see, I have this super smart brain of mine that almost never shuts up, but the only time when I feel truly alive is when it does shut up lol. So I do everything I can, to help it stay “muted” as often as possible.

⚡I am neither strong nor independent, I feel best when I can let go of control and someone who I trust just tells me what to do. I want someone who’d be happy to take charge of my life and make most decisions for both of us. 

⚡But not just any dominance will do -  the more I talk to people and learn about this lifestyle, the more I realize how perfectly DDlg hits the spot for me. 

⚡Yeah, Soft Doms could give you some of that delicious vibe too, BUT seems like only true Daddies know how to control in a way that feels exactly like a tight warm hug that you never ever wanna leave :) 

⚡Also, just so you know, I’m a VERY GOOD girl and I'm never bratty - in the worst case, might only get a little bit grumpy/sad/too quiet when my cuddles blood level becomes too low. 

⚡I do prefer a bit rougher/primal/cnc-ish vibe when it comes to sex (nothing hardcore, just… you know😊) - I'm afraid this is the only area where I can't promise to be a really good / obedient girl🤭

But to be honest, this is absolutely not my main concern right now - I simply know that with the right person, it’ll all come easily and naturally! Call it intuition or anything, but I know Daddy will make sure of that😍😈

⚡And just for the record, I don’t know yet if my little space is sexual or not. But obviously, no CNC or such, for my sweet little bear!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🧸🤗👿

So unless I suddenly develop an additional acquired taste for a more sweet, tender approach, sexually (which I doubt, although with the way/pace this whole DDlg thing is changing me, you never know - after all, looks like it all comes down to letting go of control for me).

But the way I see it now, the Little one will probably cuddle all the time, and the Big one - enjoy the rest🙈 Not sure how other similar couples juggle both of these different "modes" haha, but I'm sure there are ways! Just wanted to let you know in case this is really important for you.

What type of Little am I and what is my Little age?

I’ve been struggling with this a bit, as I don’t draw, or play with dolls, etc. Maybe it will come later though? Idk. So some would say I’m a Middle? 

But the thing is, my preferable level of “independence” (and sweetness) is exactly that of a 5-year old 🤭  And being treated a bit like a child (baby talked to, etc) just sends me straight to heaven ))

So let’s say, I’m just a very smart and precocious 5-y.o. Little, yeah? 😆 

Big enough not to be interested in diapers or pacis 🙄🤭, but still needing her Daddy more than anything and not interested in the outside world too much yet. 

The way I see it, it’s more about the mindset vs me doing little activities, you know?

❤My Daddy loves me, takes care of me and so of course he is in charge in everything. He makes most of the decisions you’d normally make for a 5 y.o. I trust him and am only too happy to follow his lead. 

❤He holds me by the hand. He buckles me up. He helps me bathe, ties up my shoes, picks out my clothes etc (the last ones are all optional of course: only if we like it, or maybe just sometimes or smth?)

❤I go to him for guidance, with all my problems and joys. He fights off the monsters. He’s the center of my universe, my rock and my safe space, because of him I can relax and just exist. It doesn’t have to be 24x7, or it can be 24x7 but less intense… we’ll figure it out)

❤ Also, to be honest, my Little yet lives in the sweetest little world that only a true 5 y.old can inhabit lol. She’s sooo kind and sweet and super cuddly and loyal and honest to a fault✨🐾

❤ She cries if a doggie dies in a movie but of course she always checks a movie beforehand to avoid such horrible scenarios (duuh)

❤ She is also a true expect in fairytales and family-friendly romantic movies🤭, and she knows very well how everyone will meet their true love eventually, and kiss, and go to live happily ever after! (if they’re monogamous, that is)

This is the law of life and she knows this very well - you can’t deceive her on that score with any misinformation hehe

Also, now that I think of it, we probably don’t have a real “grown up” adult at all in this household, looool -

Big me might be 36 technically, but in many ways my lifestyle is a lot less "serious" than that of my peers (childfree, not-too-grown-up freelance job, crazy sleeping schedule, living on pizza 🤭 etc)

So I don't know, looks like my Papa Bear is getting a sweet Little a smart, shy and (slightly) more responsible Middle at the same time? No super-duper-serious-very-grown-up version at all, just the two of us haha

Am I looking for an online thing or what?

Even though we'll have to meet online, I’m not looking for an online dynamics, I’m too tactile for that.

Neither am I into roleplaying, just not my thing - and when the time comes, I don’t want to stare at the screen reading/watching what you’d like to do to me either, I want you to do it 🙈

Actually, I'm not even looking for a “dynamics”, I'm looking for love 🥰 It just turns out that my happily ever after needs to be a little kinky.

🌠Now, searching for love as someone who is heavily demisexual AND very much fascinated by DDlg/Soft DS lifestyle at the same time - already seems like a daunting task, a bit like looking for the needles in the haystack 😂

🌠And I might be little, but smart enough to understand that the chances of meeting my forever Daddy in my tiny country (that 99% of people never heard of) are sort of slim🤷‍♀️🤭 

🌠But I’m a smart girl and looks like I've subconsciously prepared for whatever may come!

🌠The truth is, I am kinda introverted and work online, so I've built myself this cozy happy life inside my little shell lol. So - if that means every morning I get to be waking up with my Papa Bear's arms wrapped around me tightly… who cares where on earth (or other planets) that “shell” might need to be relocated, right? 

🌠Because my dream is eventually for my Daddy to be my true home and my true shell, if that makes sense? So that I could always hide in his arms and recharge as needed

Hmm... What else? 

I have tons of info on my page if you’re curious, although I seriously suspect that my previous ads make me look waaaaaay cooler than I actually am, haha

Well, it's because they usually get born when I am sort of "high", in a way - high on these new emotions, on my newly found littleness.  When all my timid hopes of maybe finding exactly what I want, after all - suddenly became so real, so tangible. 

🧸 But no. In this world of travelers, adventurers and charismatic Insta influencers, I’m just a little house bear who lives quietly at home: I work online and part-time, keep myself busy with my cute light-hearted movies and books, do my yoga, get lost in my endless research on random topics I’m interested in, etc. 

🧸 I do hope to become a bit more daring and adventurous when my Papa Bear will be holding me tight every day and every night.

🧸 But as it is, while many people write me, mistakenly thinking I’m cool, brave and badass - let me tell you I’m NOT! I’m scared and lost.

🧸 I’m also painfully shy, terrified to put myself out there, keep on my daily battle with anxiety…  you name it. It’s a bit like constantly climbing uphill, you know? Every day you do your best to climb up so that you at least don’t fall down.

🧸 For some reason I also sometimes cry, once I slip into the little space(( Mmm comforting crybabies, anyone interested?🤭

All of the above is my biggest secret besides being extremely clingy, but how am I gonna meet my true Daddy if I am never vulnerable and everyone sees only the shiny façade, right? And I also hope it will reliably scare off the people who’re not meant to be in my life, not even briefly😋

I also wanna add, I DO NOT expect my Papa Bear to “fix” me (it’s my job and I’m working on it), but even the mere idea of maybe meeting him one day already makes me feel all warm inside 😊

OK … If something clicked inside you as you were reading and you can’t shake off the feeling like you know me from somewhere, feel free to check out my other ads or write me a message if you want!!

P.S. Work starts on Monday so I might be replying slowly (I easily slip into some sort of semi-little space when talking to nice Daddies, and then I become so mellowed that it’s hard to work).

But if I don’t press SEND now, I will find million reasons not to do it for whole next week, so come what may... I wonder if posting ads will ever get easier and not so scary? lol

Ok ... see ya🥰🧸🐾🐾 And good luck to everyone!🤗