Am I seeking the impossible? I bloom when given structure. I want so much to know that after a 10 hour shift, as complex as life is, I can at least look forward to making someone smile, whether it's through an outpouring of affection or a coloring or something else. I want to be clingy and needy to a person who wants to be needed. I want a safe space when being A Grown Up is just too much; to be told to stop thinking, stop talking, just get my paci and stuffies and do what I'm told. I want to learn all your favorite things and make lists of them in crayon and surprise you when you're having a bad day or just because.

I know I'm far from the average person's cup of tea. I'm an agender person (they/them) of the wears-a-binder variety. I'm asexual and polyromantic/polyplatonic. I'm autistic and experience nonverbal episodes. I will also talk your ear off about my special interests, given the opportunity :3

I've also been told that I have a big heart, that I have high written communication skills, and that despite (or perhaps because of) spending over 2 decades suppressing my emotions to survive a neurotypical world as an undiagnosed autistic person, that I have high emotional intelligence.

I had a Daddy for a few months last year, and have never felt more at peace with myself than in the times I had clear rules and someone who would be proud of me for following them, and even more than that, someone who found joy and happiness of their own from my obedience and desire to please. We're still on good terms, but their life circumstances changed, and they can't be a caregiver anymore.

And as an aside to the above paragraph, the only obstacle in our relationship was the fact that they were highly sexual, and while they got those needs met through other partners and were happy for our relationship to be non-sexual, it was difficult for them to remember that even the mention sexual topics throws me out of littlespace like few other things do.

Even if you aren't looking for a little, if you are or ever have been a non-sexual CG, I would appreciate it if you let me know that you exist -- that I'm not looking for someone literally impossible to find.

Thank you for reading <3