(This post will not be a stereotypical cute post, it is a raw, honest post, fueled by emotions that control me. In this moment, this is the "personality" of my mind.)

I'm a little with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and I have been in constant pain for the last several months.

If you've never dealt with someone with BPD, this post might not be for you, but if you are interested, then I ask that you please do some amount of research on the disorder. The symptoms are real and intense.

I need a daddy who I can live, who's a caregiver, and who's capable of handling and enduring my emotional storms, and mood swings of all kinds.

I will cry, vent, have mood swings, enter little space, and even maybe scream in the right time and place. It will be a lot to handle and witness. Even in just messaging me, my "personality" will noticeably change, especially when I enter little space, and I may even become spam you. ... Please don't judge me.

I will need to be held, loved, supported, comforted, and guided. I like cuddling, lots of physical affection, and stereotypical caregiving acts like giving me baths and brushing my hair. I am the type of little who's needy and clingy, who needs a lot of attention and care giving.

I have faced a lot of traumatic incidents in my life, so I need a care giver who will always speak to me in a kind, soft, gentle, understanding voice. Who will guide me and teach me... not order me around.

I am interested in exploring a mild sexual aspect, but that is not my focus.

I am against being given "conditions." Example: "You must do this with me. You must dress like this for me. I expect you to do this for me everyday."

With help, guidance, support, and teaching, I can cook basic meals, clean, organize, give emotional support, and add a womanly touch to your life. Though admittedly, I struggle to keep focus and accomplish tasks. I become overwhelmed and that spirals into different mental blocks for me.

I intend for this experience to be like a very long make-shift therapy session. I have a long history with therapy, and I do intend on pursuing a long future with therapy, but for now what I truly need is for someone to hold me, care for me, and love me. I am desperately missing that in my life, and I am learning that love must surely be the greatest, most powerful medicine.

My appearance: I am Caucasian, short, and plus-size, with dark hair.

I am very insecure of my appearance and of my personality, and of how I sometimes unintentionally express myself. I ask that you please be very, very patient with me and understanding with me. ... Please don't judge me.

Thank you for reading my post. If you are genuinely interested, please message me your age, location, and an explanation of why you belief we are a compatible duo. If you're comfortable doing so, I ask that you also please provide a selfie.

Also, in case it would be of interest to you, I have a spiritual side that I am exploring and pursuing.

Again, thank you for reading, for your time, and for your interest in my post. I appreciate it.