Let's see if we match with the usual non-negotiable deal-breakers first:

(If it matters, height wise I'm 5'11/180cm, have blue eyes, wavy dark brown hair, deep voice and would prefer someone shorter/slimmer)

Personality wise I'm more the analytical, grounded and logical person on the outside but have a warmer/sensitive side I'd like to be felt with someone special. I'm not impulsive or a risk taker whatsoever. I think things through but not to an excessive degree; I value adaptability and the ability to be cognitively flexible moreso than rigidity. You'll usually find me immersing myself in single tasks and trying to do them well, not really a multi-tasker. I just don't like spreading my attention thin.

Something you might never notice unless I told you about is how my memory works (SDAM). I don't really re-experience my personal past all that much like most people, but can easily recall semantic information like facts, concepts, numbers etc. This means I can be very out of sight, out of mind about things and people. However I'm also incredibly present, don't tend to hold grudges and can always see you as you are now. I tend to dig into things very deep to find out their "essence" or their "core" and like figuring out what makes a person do what they do. If you're someone who always felt misunderstood and also crave that inside-out understanding you might appreciate this.

Who/What I'm I looking for? Well I love the idea of being each others complements/second halves so someone who shares relationship values (loyalty, devotion, honesty, companionship etc) but is also emotionally expressive/intense and conventionally feminine. It could be that you're someone that tends to experience the world deeply and are vibrant, bubbly and energetic or have an anxious perhaps chaotic disposition. Maybe you are dreamy/idealistic/creative or delicate/fragile, are neurodivergent or have some condition that colours your life like BPD. Any of that I feel would help balance the relationship out in a way as honestly there is not that much going on in my head most of the time. I'm like a walking wiki on subjects I know a lot about sure but it doesn't mean very much to me if I can't share that with someone and experience it. Also being someone's "rock", stable anchor or "voice of reason" is one of those things I feel I can do really well.

Short list of hobbies for those of you just scanning through this wall of text :P

• Psychology/Philosophy/Spirituality (I'll geek out about about anything that offers a puzzle piece of the human condition)
• Tech/CompSci/Gaming/Reading/Documentaries over fiction
• Anime/Cosplay/J-Fashion (if you're a cute dollette or in general wear your heart on your sleeve like an e-girl/alt girl I'd melt on sight lol)
• Voice acting/Sound Engineering/Music prod (used to be a voice trainer for 2 years)
• Cooking/Health/Self-Improvement & DIY (I 3d print, make my own sodas and keyboards from scratch just to give you an idea)

Well that's it, I tell myself I'll write something short to get more responses but I'd rather reach someone who resonates with any of this. Quality over quantity. As long as this post is up you can assume I'm still looking. If you got this far thank you, really. It's only fair it's your turn to spam me now :P