I am a broken person and came to a point where I think I'll just make my peace with the fact that I will have to deal with my broken parts as long as I am alive, cuz they won't ever really heal. And it's ok. Besides what's broken, I can still be an intelligent, creative, good-hearted and funny person.

Since I was a real child, I have been through a lot. Life has never been easy for me and I am exhausted. All the trauma, loneliness, constant stress had a huge price on my mental and physical health. I have never really been taken care of. I deserve and need that to a degree I can not even express, but I also reject that a lot, cuz I had very bad experiences every time I tried that. An I am pretty hurt inside, like those stray dogs.

I am dealing with a lot right now and I could really use an oasis, a relationship that could be a safe place for both sides, a place where I could breathe and be myself and also love and be loved. However, I am not open to a full relationship yet because I am not in a good place and because I don't know if I will decide to trust anyone at that level again.

I need someone really caring, not strict at all. I need what I never had in life: softness, caring, nurturing, feeling I am the most important person for someone, consistence, consistence, consistence and tons of empathy. I need undivided attention for sometime every day. And I offer the same.

I am a very physical person, a hug is what calms me down and even helps with pain ( I suffer from chronic pain). But I know people here are most likely to live far from me and, to be honest, maybe it is a good thing, cuz I don't want to get hurt again. But, as virtual stuff is a huge trigger for me, I need you to show me in concrete ways I can trust you. Consistence, voice, routine, making yourself present in a distance is an art and I really need you to master that art.

I don't even know if what I need exist: a true Caregiver, a lonely person that really want to dedicate his care and affection to someone broken.Little me usually is around 5-7, but if I feel safe, she might probably get aroud 4 or 3 (NOOOO abdl for me). I used to like colouring, bed time songs, bed time stories and things like that, but I have been so sad and betrayed that I don't know if I'm still open for those things, at least not in the beggining. Maybe my adult needs to feel comforted before.

I need someone that makes himself present, consistently, with voice better than just messages. A partner, with whom I can share, be true and safe and that can be those things with me as well.

I love books, psychology, nature, singing, writing dancing, animals, art, travelling... I am also pretty tall. I want someone mature enough, someone that do not play games in a relationship, someone honest, open, with whom I enjoy talking about a lot of stuff and with whom in yime, my little fells safe and hugged. Someone that need a safe and loving bond as much as I do.

Please be OVER 30, available to a consistent presence and emotional dedication (no poly or workaholic wanted). If you understand anything about complex trauma and chronic pain, it's a plus, vuz I am too exhausted to explain.

I am in a very fragil state (emotional and physical) and I need comfort, not games or stupidity. I need a man, not a boy, a real caregiver, not just a fetichist, someone who are eager for a true, monogamic and honest conection. I am probably asking for a lot but the quality of presence I ask for is the same one I can give so I think it's just fair.

If you want a princess that used to be extremely sweet and is able to rescue this one from all the mistrust, trauma and pain that is hiding her, please send me a message. I DO NOT want empty words, clichês, advice or help. I just want someone that can be there for me, by my side, to whom I really matter and that can hug me so I can find my way back to life.