What am I looking for in specified form?-> In this form I am particularly looking for people within the cgl community, someone with a friendship in particular? This friendship can go into a deeper meaning the longer that we talk and that I am comfortable enough to be in a relationship ^, still getting over ones in the past, and my anxiety isn't the best-

Hello! Here is the very geeky loving pc gaming specifically simulations, switch bean. I am called Rylan online, though I am called Madison irl. I live in South Carolina! I am 22 year old and I'll be 23 in September. I am non-binary, though I am of course a female at birth. My pronouns are they/any. I am demiromantic greysexual. I am mixed skin with the height of 5'4. I have curly hair and dark brown eyes that lighten up when in lighting. My body is cm off from my left to right and I have almost major scoliosis. I vape, but not a lot. I don't drink unless with people that I am close with, though that would be rare. I have a light voice and look/sound like I am a child I at times hate my voice. I have a light sense of humor and like to laugh a lot. I am a somewhat person pleasurer and like to please others even if something I am out of my comfort zone. I work for a living, and a service leader at a chipotle. I have little bit of college experience, though I am an highschool graduate. I have dyslexia and terrible memory. I am diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, dissociative identity disorder, though this is just a little warning if I seem to be distant or what not.

For my hobbies!
I love pc gaming specify playing simulations, though hogwarts is a pretty nice game! I am a writer and a role-player. I am pretty literate with my roleplay and love to make stories with other people. I love listening to music, and I used to play instruments when I was in highschool. I love genres with like a meaningful lyrics or music with a nice beat/tone to it, though that would be about anything really. I do cook when I am working, and I bake things when I am home. I love researching and just learning human physiology as of late. I watch stuff like youtube videos, true crime documentaries, and stuff like that.

Cool! Now we are over that mountain...
I am looking to develop a long term platonic relationship possibly romantic feelings in the future with someone. I am looking for someone understands; I have trauma underlining with parental figures. I'm rather shy opening up to people. I normally match up with what my partner needs and shape up from there. My little age is 1-4 years old, though I want to see if I am willing to be younger or pinpoint my actual regressed age! I am a soft little and caretaker on both sides and just prefer someone to come and talk with me and spend time with me.
Once again, I don't want to jump right into a romantic relationship, though I prefer development in such deep relationships. Hints my romantic attraction. It is a plus if you are gamer, though not a requirement. I am fine with voice calls and sitting on the phone as long as I'm not busy! Hints away at work.