Dear Reader,

Another year and I’m 30 now (ushered in last week), another year and I realize after all these ads I still haven’t truly found you, the mythical and caring, stern and devious ‘Daddy’ of my pretty yet perverse dreams. With the state of the world (the big one and the little one that holds just me and the things that float around my stratosphere) I don’t think any of us can be certain of just how much time and opportunity we have to pursue these things that we so crave. And it’s with that notion that I thought I’d make another valiant attempt, rejuvenated from finishing my last yearly rotation, to find a partner to help me and have me in all of my neurodivergent mess.

This time, I am looking for a ‘Daddy’/Disciplinarian who can care for me in a Professor/Therapist role with a depraved twist. You will get to know me and my quite kinky and creative brain and find all the ways you can slowly start to help me become a better girl. We will come up with goals both practical and sexual and you will take care of me by deciding all the things this “little” girl brain can’t manage by itself. Many times in the past I have tried to remain in control, even when I was seemingly giving it up, and I think it is time to truly surrender to bigger, kinder hands.

I don’t like to admit it but DDlg/Ageplay has a particularly effective impact on changing my behavior and keeping me on track. This is especially true when incorporating diaper discipline and ABDL, and while this type of play is something I have historically been hesitant to truly embark on I know it to be useful in molding me into the truly submissive and degraded slut/slave I have always known myself to be deep down. It is important to be that any dynamic I enter into includes these aspects of DDlg/ABDL but some other kink themes and interests that I am interested in are included but limited to:

Orgasm denial, edging, anal/anal only, humiliation, degradation, age play as humiliation, impact play, chemical play, exhibitionism, pet play, praise, TPE, D/s, pussy punishment/abuse, pussy denial, “abusive/controlling” boyfriend/partner, CNC

Limits - scat (let’s talk about diapers), exposure, illegal activity, blackmail (or rp/fantasy), choking, face fucking (soft), urine drinking, gang bang, sex or sexual activity under the influence, animals, permanent marks or branding, blood

Now you might be wondering a bit about me, so I’ll tell ya, but just a bit before I lose too many of you with a LONG post.

ABOUT ME: Call me A. Spacey, intense, passionate, nerdy, opinionated but also very shy, cat lover, tea drinker, I do something in the urban planning realm to survive in this capitalist hell scape. Leftist, disillusioned with the state, ML, Maoist. Not new to kink but new to the experience. I write, do aerial yoga and go down extensive history internet rabbit holes. Right now I’m hyper fixated on Creme Brûlée and Raspberry Ginger Ale. Favorite movie is Amelie but I’m a fan sci-fi a la the Fifth Element. TV is Lost, the Leftovers, Altered Carbon and Lovecraft County. I like all kinds of music but listen to hip hop/rap/r&b (underground, east coast) and rock (classic - stones, led zeppelin, Creedence. Modern umbrella - arcade fire, Tool, Rage Against the Machine) the most. I don’t socialize a lot so it’s a bit like cracking a coconut at first, but you’ll get me there, and it’s worth it.

Located in the Boston area/EST. This ad is intentionally marked as searching for online but if you are in the area or a reasonable distance I am not closed off to something IRL but it will need to start online without the high expectation of real life.

Can you see me? Before we message? Sure. There are some photos from my posts on my profile page - these posts might give ya some more insight on my whole deal as well. Happy to share others as we progress. I love to take all kinds of filthy photos of myself as a wannabe model they are posted all over Fet (if you’ve seen me on there no you didn’t). I’ve consequently acquired a wealth of toys and lingerie for my silly little photos which might come in handy in some of (our) future endeavors. If you just want me to tell you, I’m 5’6”, curvy, brunette and what I’ve been told by many people is conventionally attractive. I come with a number of tattoos and piercings.

Examples of things I would like to be held accountable for

Screen time

Quitting vaping nicotine

Maintaining personal hygiene

Completing household chores

Staying within a budget

Productivity (at work & at home)

Healthy eating & exercise

Examples of areas I would like to give you control over

Wardrobe rules/guidelines and/or clothing selection

Bedtime, wake time, and other scheduling

Orgasms - how, when & how many? If they occur

Diet rules/guidelinesP

hysical appearance - makeup, jewelry, body hair

Bathroom use - permissions, protocols

Exercise - what, when & how often?

Some tools and tasks I have used in the past that have worked well & I’d like to use again

Food & Exercise apps like LoseIt or My Fitness Pal

Content Blocking apps to limit screen time like Freedom

To-doist for tasks

Google Drive

Nightly check-in journals

Persistent photo evidence

Porn Watching Log & Ratings/Commentary

Digital closet using Google Drive

My brain is the type to get so perfectly stimulated by the intersection of sex, kink, spirituality, and intellect. It constantly searches for connection in depths where there just might be none yet it’s despite that statement or maybe even because of it that I am yearning for something that tickles that sensitive nub of my brain. As much as I would like to be stimulated sexually I would also like to be stimulated mentally and encouraged (and held accountable) to pursue my academic interests, in addition to, finding space and time to invest in my spiritual practice (which can be and often is a form of sexual practice as well). Something about the structure of a college syllabus and the stern yet caring professor who authored it. I am learning lessons both academic and personal, sexual and spiritual.

If you’re wondering some of my academic interests include

Environmental Anthropology

Social Psychology

Urban Studies

Sociology of DisasterHistory - Latin America, Colonial America, Reconstruction, 17th Century Scotland

Social theory & Philosophy

My spiritual beliefs are a whole world to get into another time but fall within the Pagan/Western Esotericism, Folk magic realm, and the way they intersect with sex can look like

Daily meditation/devotional edging

Chastity or denial as an offering (to a deity) OR as a spiritual cleanse

Pain and punishment as atonement/offering

States of Trance & Edging

Humility & Humiliation

Rituals (including sexual rituals) around the Lunar Calendar

Having written all this I am wondering if this will in fact be the time I find you though if history is a good marker then maybe not. If you are reading this post, my long searched-for caring hand, I think from here we could take many forms, a caring yet academic and seemingly seductive penpal like exchange (draft me that perfect first message or perhaps make a sly request for my email), text me in fervent anticipation of just where we could go and what we could do next until we finally make it to some messaging app to exchange those dirty pics - just a taste for now, or let’s chat about the perfect platform to house our naughty little realm with all our soon to be steps into our own depravity - perhaps an unsuspecting little folder on Google Drive? Or a secret and rightfully so, Discord server? But before all that let’s get to know each other first, send me the message that lets me know that you’re finally here, and if it’s not you, don’t worry, I’m the type of girl that knows what she wants so it won’t take me too long to unravel the mystery.

What do you say? I’m waiting. (If you message just note my correspondence will be nonexistent or sparse before 5 pm EST - but if you talk to me I’ll talk back).