It's always difficult to show what exactly you want without sounding tedious even to yourself. I think in aesthetics and emotions, snapshots and vibes, and what I'm looking for is really a reflection of who I am (or my perception of who I am) in addition to being a display of my perception of my future. What I want is a partnering soul, who enjoys what I have to give, and who possesses to give what I enjoy. Someone open, someone respectful, someone scary, who loves psychology, someone who knows what it means to play. I adore play. I want to play with you. Come have fun with me?

If that's not quite enough, here are a few snapshots that might show you a bit more of what I'm looking for.

• I want someone to dress me up in adorable little outfits and lovingly make fun of me until I'm bright red and pouty.
• I want you to tie my hands behind my back with a lacy ribbon and feed me small spoonfuls because otherwise I'll get it all over myself.
• I want to have soup days, where we spend the day switching between making soup together and cuddling over board games.
• I want to listen to you talk about what you're interested in for hours.
• I want you to want to listen to me talk about game theory and rationality and fanfiction and my assortment of adorable collections.
• I want to be out in public and know that if I get a certain look from you it'll send a lightning bolt of butterflies into my stomach, and the rest of the way home to be dreaming about what'll happen when we get there.
• I want you to take me to the aquarium and tell me what kind of fish you think I'd be if I was a fish.
• I want us to pretend I'm a captured spy and you're interrogating me, and for both of us to learn in detail about the chosen time period and context so we can make sure our roleplaying is historically accurate.

There's plenty more, but the essence of my desires is clear, and there are so many more ideas that could be discussed. As for me, I'm several things. For example, I am all of the below.

• A whirlwind roller coaster of fairly stable mental health.
• Several buckets of rainbows and enthusiasm.
• A small clown dressed in a party outfit.
• Any picture of a crying cat that you see on the internet.
• Hopelessly and vulnerably submissive.
• Best described personality-wise by others as "if you were a place, you'd be a laser light show."
• Compassionate, humanistic, and very liberal.

And last but not least, here are all my neat little identity(?) tags for you to pay attention to or not, as you, an internet stranger, so choose. They succinctly convey a good deal of information about me, including a number of popular dealbreakers, so you might want to take a look.

~\* Autistic | ADHD | demi/grey-asexual | little | brat | fat | demigirl (she/they) *~