Hi Hi… There’s just so much more to this dynamic that I crave and need, and I know there is more to what I’m experiencing. I was introduced to this dynamic a year ago, I’ll be honest I was absolutely overwhelmed because ‘vulnerability’ is/was so hard for me. I did study a lot about it, either from my (current??) Daddy, from you guys and online sites/YouTube. I’m forever grateful for the patience he’s given me, because I eventually learnt and understood it enough to accept that hidden, locked part of myself. It’s special and magical as I just let myself go completely. When we’re together, it just feels so so right, and he makes me feel special and wanted. But unfortunately that’s only once every 4-6 sometimes 8 weeks. When we don’t see each other, (so communicating over text)- I always have this feeling of neglect. If I don’t initiate a conversation or suggest another meet up, then I won’t hear from him. We chat once or twice a week. Sadly, I can count on one hand the amount of times where he’d contact me rather than it being the other way around. I completely understand that we have such a busy lives, in general. But I’ve also learnt that it really doesn’t take much time or energy to contact someone, especially when you have a Babygirl who is literally only yours.

There’s just only so much chasing I can do and I’m just exhausted….

Absolutely yes, I’ve communicated this to him. There’s things he had said in that conversation that I can’t really shake. It’s etched deeply into my mind. Without giving too much away, incase he recognises this but he knows that I deserve a reliable Daddy which implied that I can search for one and until I find that, he will continue to be Daddy. This was 4 months ago... After this conversation he basically did a 360 and became that reliable Daddy himself. Now? I feel just lost and weak and like crap basically the same way I felt before the talk. I’d say 2 months after we talked about he, he was great it felt good to feel wanted by Daddy.

Outside of this, I’m a strong and independent, hardworking woman and a high achiever which he knows. It’s also why I’ve become so accustomed to this dynamic because all that goes out the window and I don’t have to be or do any of that. I’m just Daddy’s Babygirl… There’s been good things happen to me recently, big achievements with my job and my studies that I can’t even tell him anymore. I miss and want that recognition that I usually don’t receive at home (because I don’t disclose it) but that feeling of telling Daddy and just feeling his elation, is just gone… I’d often tell him good news first. I mentioned an interview to him last week but he didn’t even acknowledge that I told him that- at all. Even asking me what it was for… I got the job….

Unfortunately it’s gotten to the point that I’d just delete messages that I’ve typed to him before I’ve sent them. Whether it be general, or an announcement or even when I want to be little because i just need Daddy. I feel like I’m a burden to him now, and also that he’ll just ignore my messages or leave me on read entirely. Sadly, he has done that many times before (and now).

I just want to snuggle up with Daddy and hear him tell me that it’s all okay and it’s just a bump on the road…..

I’m sorry this is so long, I really don’t know what else I can say and do. It’s so hard for me to end it with him, he’s my first Daddy the connection I feel when we’re together, is just indescribable. Which in-turn clouds my judgement, until there’s no mutual communication.