I want to keep my little space and little things separate from my normal life. Including my not yet existing children I'll probably have after 10 years from now, but I can't help but stress the "what if" situations. My little age is from 1 to 8 years, I'd guess. And little me loves everything pastel, glitter and sanrio. Aka, I'm a very girly little. Pastel glitter things and certain sanrio things will send me to little space quite quickly. So the problem is - what if, when I'm old and stable enough to have a kid of my own, the kid ends up liking the same things? Especially if I'm still in need of occasional little space to de-stress.

I could, of course, deny myself little space all together from this day on and train myself not to associate things like that with little space, but because of the infertility problems in my family, I may not even have a kid in the first place after 8 to 10 years. And I would have given up my only safe place for the imaginary child.

Or then I could deny my own yet-to-exist child from liking those things. But it's not going to happen, breaking the cycle of abuse is more important than any little space ever. I could make a secret room into my future house that is dedicated for my little space, but what if the child finds it and insists on playing there, and finds some not-so-suitable toys from there? And then the future child of mine would resent me from not letting them play in the secret room and it's toys rest of their lives or will figure out what's cgl and then misunderstand it deeply to the point of thinking that my yet-to-exist husband would be a pedo or something similar.

I feel like I have to choose between having a little space to de-stress and having a family in the future. Are there any people who have managed to find a solution for this? Can you give your child a normal and a happy life even if you yourself have time for yourself in a childlike mindset?

And don't any of you dare suggesting that I'd spend time around my kid while in little space, I'm not going to put anyone other than my dom into the situation of having to parent a full grown woman like me.

Should I get rid of the cgl part of my life before having kids?