I’m effectively bedridden and I have been for about two years or more now. Somewhere between moderate and severe, kind of depends on the day.

It was already hard to maintain friendships before I became completely stuck in bed. Now it is pretty much impossible to make new friends and I am so alone.

I do have a couple people in my life that I consider friends but I have this intense longing for a lady bestie. Someone who understands what it’s like to be a woman. I’m really craving feminine energy and I’m usually surrounded by men. It’s super rare for me to be around another female bodied person, unless it’s my mother.

I was never someone who cared about that kind of thing really. Always got along better with boys anyway. But I’ve been without a lady friend in my life for so long that my heart is hurting about it.

And I feel like I have nothing to offer a new friend anyway. Even if I could meet someone, how could I build a new friendship with someone when I can’t do anything?

I miss being able to text a friend about my uterus or something. Lol

Seriously though. 💔 So. Lonely.