Helloooo. I hope you're doing well.

Soooo. There are valid reasons that I'm not going to be suitable as a partner for many/most. I figure I should just be forward about the major concerns, so I can feel less anxious about when X/Y/Z is going to come up, and to save a lot of mutual time/effort.
I'm unemployed, a non-driver, and living with family. None of those are impossible to change, but they are things I'm struggling to tackle in life. Part of that struggle is due to some neurodivergent traits. ADHD (more fair to call it Executive Dysfunction), Anxiety, and persistent-depression/low-mood, mostly. Likely on the spectrum. I'm in therapy, on meds, working with a job coach, and trying to get my shit together to move forward in life. Growth/Change is hard, and slow. I am trying.

Thoughts about myself:
I have to acknowledge that I have difficult time saying positive things about myself. Imposter syndrome's a jerk. I'm told I'm intelligent. I have amazing friends, and I believe they would speak highly of me. I'd like to believe it's fair for me to say that I'm caring, considerate, supportive, empathetic, honest, warm, and loving. Thoughtful, introspective, and self-aware. Fair, rational/reasonable.

I enjoy deep conversation, things akin to philosophy/society/morality/life/the-future. I'm happy to talk about games/media, too. I'm wired to solve problems, to make things better. Finished college with an associate's degree. I tend to know at least a little about a lot of things in life, so I think I can talk about most things in some context and be a good conversationalist. I'm up for talking about anything and everything, and I can share my thoughts/feelings pretty easily. I'd have a hard time saying I'm funny, but I have a sense of humor, and I can't say I don't get some laughs now and again among friends.

What I'm looking for:
My love languages.
I'm not looking to force things. I'm happy to start with friendship, and see if things can grow beyond that. It's okay if they don't, no pressure. Ultimately, I'm looking for my person, and I want to be theirs in turn. Monogamy/Exclusivity in a relationship is important to me. Marriage, one day, would be nice. I'm hoping for someone ~5yrs within my age, not mandatory, but the closer the better. I'm a shy/timid person, and I find I benefit greatly when someone is chatty/forward/aggressive (Not required, though). I'd value someone who finds fulfillment/value in being an affectionate, empathetic, patient, reassuring, and emotionally supportive presence for their partner. I like to provide those qualities myself.

If we click, an interest in closing the physical distance is important. I'd like to live and share life together as long as we can, sharing the joys and easing the burdens of life. I'm mostly a hermit, and a night-owl. I'd just like to have a place of our own, for it to be comfy/clean/organized, and to find what harmony and happiness we can enable for one another. To find our own small ways to make echoes of positivity in the world, to enjoy what time we have here, and to nudge things in a better direction for those that'll be here after we're gone. Until then, I'm eager to enjoy what we can share until the distance can close, though. I'd really like someone who is looking for to spend a lot of time together. Hanging out, talking over Discord. Watching and playing stuff together would be nice.

Kids: I do not want kids. A vasectomy is in my future.

Hobbies/Interests:
My interests are mostly nerdy in nature. Games, TV/Film, Cartoons/Anime. My go-to genres are usually Sci-Fi/Horror.
My musical tastes are varied. A lot of synth/electronica stuff, but I enjoy a large variety of things.
I don't read as much as I'd like/should, but I'm a big fan of Brandon Sanderson, Jim Butcher, and Terry Pratchett.
I enjoy LEGO and other hands-on crafty things.
I played D&D for a few years, it's something I'd be interested-in/willing to do more of. I'd be down for doing some other board games, or TTRPGs, too.
I enjoy swimming.
Fall/Winter>Spring>Summer. I enjoy rain and snow. I like things being a little chilly, I like cuddling, and I like being under a blanket.

Politics:
I'm a very left-leaning / progressive individual. Somewhere around Socialist Democrat or Democratic Socialist?
I try and keep aware/up-to-date with what's going on. It's mostly upsetting, but ignoring it doesn't help, either. It's something I can/will talk about.
I'm LGBT /PoC/ND NT friendly.

Religion:
I'm an agnostic individual, but I get the appeal of various religious ideas/concepts. I don't mind someone who has faith/spirituality, as long as they're respectful and rational around it, able to understand why others can't believe what they do, and can be okay with that.

Alcohol/Drugs:
Mostly fair to say that I don't drink, though I occasionally add a smidge of flavored alcohol to soda for some flavor. I've never been drunk.
I won't smoke anything, but I do enjoy regular cannabis edibles, and I'm pro-psychedelics (done safely). No hard/addictive drugs.

Sex:
I experience a good deal of anxiety around sex especially. I don't have a lot of experience, and I'm very aware that women get frequent unwanted sexual advances/commentary online and in life, and the idea of contributing to that scares me. I don't want to accidentally add to that discomfort, so, I'm not going to be one to nudge things those directions first. It's certainly something I'd like to discuss/explore with someone, but I'm happy to let the other person decide if/when they want to broach those topics.

That said, in the interest of divulging points of incompatibility, if one is interested in knowing probably TMI about my buttons…

I'd say I have a high libido, and am strongly a Switch, though Sub leaning. Dom kinks/inclinations are definitely there, it just... Anxiety. There's fear of causing physical/mental/emotional harm to someone.
Growing up with the early internet, and over 25yrs on it, between porn, anime/hentai, SciFi, and over a decade of enjoying /r/GoneWildAudio, my buttons/sensibilities are… diverse and warped.
Here's a woefully incomprehensive sampling of some of my buttons.
Annnnd another.

Thank you for reading, and as long as this post is up, you are welcome to reach out. I'll be around, probably playing some Warframe, and if you'd like to hop on Discord, watch a movie or chat, I'd love to hear from you, to get to know you, and to enjoy one another's company.