Warning AND TW: Addiction and drugs occasionally briefly mentioned ALSO I have basically no experience with Reddit besides creeping, so I’m sorry if I’m not doing some things right.

Okay so this is going to be long and detailed but the depression and shame from this situation has been my driving of years of addiction.

So im (28F) officially a little over five months sober after 16 years of daily opiate use that progressed to IV. Im extremely happy to have made it this far and am finally getting out of my parents and into a sober living home in three weeks. The only issue is that I do not have a job currently, but I thankfully assistance the first three months at least due to my brother in laws saving grace.

The issue is that they demand you to get on your shit and get a job asap no matter what. Which scares me because I desperately need to get out of the food and veterinary industry, which is all the experience I have. I genuinely hate both and it’s embarrassing, and I don’t know if it’s my depression or bipolar 1 makes me even worse, but I can not just “suck it up and do it”. I literally never make it more than a couple or months, or constantly call out because I’m so depressed I can’t get out of bed or puking from anxiety just picturing any normal day. I’m not a good employee no matter how had I try. Plus there’s a lot of substance abuse in food service, and my experience in vet is mostly emergency which is extended my long hours, which I use drugs to accomplish completing. They’re just not healthy for me in many ways.

So I’m asking, is there any careers that with the experience of these two fields (chef and kennel tech, vet assistant and tech) that I could switch too without college? Or does anyone know of anything I can do I can do besides college that’ll make employeers in other business fields actually want to hire me?

Just some skill highlights, I was the head chef or lead a lot of my earlier positions, I have a lot of patient/lab work documentation, various software use, basic data entry, type over 80wpm, 8 customer service. Etc

Sorry it’s so long but I am literally desperate and have been in this position for 5 years now, stuck in this depression and embarrassment.