Sorry guys i just need to vent, i am not looking for a solution because i don’t live in the US and the bureaucracy in NL is very different.

While i was doing my bachelors degree i got cancer in my spinal canal, twice. I got a lot of treatment and rehab. My study was hard to finish. While finishing my study, i found a decent job and they are happy with me.

However, work is giving me stress, but i have to work enough hours to pay the bills and costs of living are raising rapidly. My life now consists of working and needing rest. This is not the life i wanted.

Now this clinic has the audacity of sending me bills, while they did not do anything for me. I basically came there, and they sent me away because they thought i was cured and they only do research on cured ex-cancer patients. Still they make me pay. This is infuriating because they won’t stop demanding this money from me.

Besides that, the tax office is chasing my ass because apparently they also want money from me. I was able to deduct some of my income taxes because i had very high medical costs. These are all justified and i spend days searching for proof and gave it to them. Now they still demand money back from me for some other stupid reason, they say i got social security money from my county because of covid, which i did not get, my roommate did.

My partner works 80 hours a week and i had to ask him to move out because i could not stand his stressfull energy around me anymore. We barely see each other anymore and i miss him. Working from home sounds wonderful, but not if i work from 8 to 5 and he works from 3 to 12. Now we live apart and i can’t keep up the household on my own while having to work full-time.

So my advice to anyone would be: just don’t get cancer. Because you will be screwed over. You will be used. I’m so incredibly angry and don’t know what to do with it, it’s paralyzing me.

Thanks for reading my rant, strangers. I hope you areas healthy as you can be and above all, i hope you are happy.