I guess im looking for some sort of support.. as i have been feeling very misunderstood and lonely lately.

The cancer in my spinal canal metastased 3 times and caused damage on my nerves. It hurts a lot. But worse than that, i can’t do things like a ‘normal’ person anymore. Whenever i walk, i may fall randomly. Last day i spilled a whole cup bot coffee on the stairs of my office because my left leg said ‘nope’.

Also i need a warm and semi comfortable environment to be able to sleep well. For example i’m camping with friends, and some of them treat me like i’m some sort of luxurious b*tch because of this - i want a warm water bottle or anything that keeps me warm at 3 degrees celsius. If i am cold and sleep bad, i will feel terrible the next day and have more pain than than before. Few people seem to care.

It just hurts.

I feel so lonely in these moments.

Please can someone relate? It feels like i am the only one.