So I (23f) usually used to act awkward around girls that I have crush on. I haven't acted in a such way in very long time since I almost never have crushes these days. I have always been a friendly and talkative person when I am confident and being myself. I am very flirty when I see an attractive but not too intiminating woman. I work as assistant nurse, we have lot of women working there and some are of around my age and I just like flirting with them ( the flirting are mainly just me being humours and teasing them) . Its just comes natural to me. And I know mostly they are straight so I dont take it too deely. I am just enjoying and passing my time. My such personality may even have led some to believe I have something for them but thats very far from the truth. I do think they are pretty and cute. But when I am off the work. I forgot abt all of them.

Anyway so the thing is, I knew I am awkward around people I like/ have a crush on. However, what I didn't know just until few years ago was that I get uncomfortable and awkward even around girls who I think likes me. Usually, I also start to like them back as a result.

So the same thing is happening at my work. I work afternoon shifts. One day I saw a night shift worker was doing afternoon shift. I have never talked to her or even knew her name but I knew she was from night shift as I had noticed her come for night shift as we afternoon workers will be leaving. I never really thought anything abt her. So the day when I saw her at my shift, i really didnt care. We may have thrown a few glaces at eachother like anyone would to people at work u dont know well. However all these changed when I heard her saying "isn't she so cute?" to one of the resident as i was leaving from their room after attending them and she was in to give them medication.

I liked the compliment and again thought not much of it. After couple days I saw her at the break room. I was about to start my shift and was just having some good laughs with my colleagues when I noticed that she has been looking at me constantly. Idk if I am being delusional but I know when the looks are so intense and flirty, I feel they like me. I caught her couple times while doing so, it made me uncomfortable, so i avoided looking at her. So now everytime, she is in the room I like it but also feel awkward and uncomfy like when u have a crush. I dont wanna be like this, I wanna be calm and natural flirty self. I am type of person who at least says hi and how u doing at work to everyone. So now whenever I am in their presence, it just feels like forget how to be myself.

This is not the only girl I have this with, there couple more. Actually there's one who I use to tease alot but as she started to flirt back. I stopped being too flirty. And there's this one who I just saw as another colleague who I had worked with, gave me similar intense look a while ago and feel like I am starting to like her as well. And you know how I am like when that happens. I dont enjoy it. I wanna be able to flirt and be myself despite of them liking me or me liking them back .

Have u guys ever felt the similar way? How can i over come this?