October 13th will mark 1 year since my first bunion surgery. The right foot feels great, looks good, I cannot lie. But the topic of this vent is not on my right foot. Rather, my left. To start. It’s been a long ass year. January I finished physical therapy. February and March were great…April came, and suddenly I had a screw poking visibly up at the top of my foot, so May, I had my hardware removed, problem solved right? Wrong. June comes along, I go back because at this rate all I want to do is to go back to work! So I get prescribed for some custom orthotics to be made. Great. Wonderful. Except I have to wait 4-6 weeks for them to be made. Fine. 6 weeks later I get my orthotics, and they are wonderful. I get told that they will last me 3-5 years….great, amazing!….I wore them out in 4 weeks and I suffered most of the last week. The orthotist is both impressed and shocked to say the least. Tells me “wow, the condition of your orthotics is usually what I see after 3 years of wear/use, this isn’t supposed to happen…” so he orders me another pair…tells me it’ll be 1-2 weeks.. we are on week 3 now, I went to the chiropractor in search of help, because every day now is my entire left side aching, grinding, cracking, and soreness. He does some X-rays, come to find out, my hips are uneven, my spine is bent, my knee is bent inwards. And this is on top of the obvious fact that my left ankle is also bent inwards, and my left foot sits like one of them toothpick and marshmallow cubes that a kid built in the 6th grade, kinda smushed looking and bending inwards as well…the chiropractor treatments aren’t helping and are kinda making it worse, (just the feeling of my bones popping back to the way they were is gross, on top of the return of the pre-existing pain and grinding). And quite frankly, I’m not hopeful that the next pair of orthotics are going to last any longer than the first pair…and now I’m just frustrated and tired…and everything is just too much damn work because everything grinds and it feels like I’m walking with a flat tire….and everything is physically exhausting now with all of these problems….even sleeping isn’t all that great either. I have jokingly planned my imaginary funeral in which everyone must dress in western attire including cowboy hats, and the ceremonial music must be sung by Kermit the frog…. (Side note, no, I do not wish to quite literally die, I don’t feel suicidal, I have a will to live, it’s just the sensations this body is giving me is very physically draining, and people always comment now that I look tired at work, and I very much am…)…the only slight relief I get is from using a cane at work to lean on…my co-worker said I should “spruce it up” so it looks cooler…but at this rate I decided to splurge and get a black cane made of oak that has a hand carved crow in the handle…very cool, very edgy….I’m not sure how to end this post…or really where to go next…., as it is almost 1am as I’m writing this, and I am once again, very tired….. if you made it this far….thanks for reading? Hopefully this is in decent English.