I have been bullied all through my life until I left elementary and changed school into an all girls school in highschool. I thought everything will be fine in highschool since I was a new student but I have been bullied by my batchmates, they say bad things about me and laughing about me while I was reading and speaking in front of the class. Then during grade 9, I was a victim of cyberbullying and also grade 10, I was excluded by many throughout those years. That is the time I feel depressed of everything and not wanting to go back to school. Then senior highschool came, I was again bullied. At first, I did not care at all but in the present time right now in college, I get sudden flashbacks from the past and it made me dream about the incident and the people that are part of bullying itself. I also have uncontrollably crying and get easily startled due to trauma

Can I ask how do you overcome sudden flashbacks from the past? I am thinking of going to therapy soon but in secret because my parents arent in favor for me to go to a psychologist for my well-being