I'm an 18 year old male, just finished high school and currently preparing to attend college abroad. I've been in a friend circle of 5 which is basically 4 because they would never get me involved in anything social with them. They would make me feel like I'm part of the gang and invite me to their hangouts. Though I never said no to their offers, they would make jokes out of me. Friend A for example, I've known him since we were very young and he knows every little cringey things I did in middle school when I wasnt even aware of whats cringe back then. He would brought up what I did years ago and laugh at it. He would be acting normally towards me and out of nowhere he starts cussing at me. When we play online games, he out of everyone would make fun of me and everyone would start laughing making me anxious and uncomfortable. A few months back, i refused to go to his birthday and in response he called my girlfriend a bitch and called her names. The next day he would act like nothing happened and start talking to me normally. I've learnt that he isn't a bully towards anyone but me. What's worse is Friend A is a smart student unlike me and he's a teacher's favourite. Out of coincidence, he and I will be going to the same college in the same country ://. While we were playing games, he would say "im gonna bully u in (the country im going)" and everyone would start laughing. All I can say is, ive never met a passive bully and ive never been bullied during my time in highschool. I will try my best to avoid every interaction with him as much as possible because talking to him about it will never be a good idea. Why didnt i just leave the group sooner? Well, ive never been in a proper friend circle and i felt like we are alike. I kept telling myself maybe the bullying was out of affection but its is starting to feel threatening and sad.