So I am a recovering bulimic who is overweight. I cycle between binging and purging and after I lost my dad, I gained a lot of weight - almost 30 pounds. And now something ticked in my head and I’m spiraling again. I’m taking laxatives and planning big binges and counting calories outside of binging and I’m trying to figure out the best places to purge ( I transferred to a new store and it’s a single stall bathroom) and when I can. I’m drinking alcohol again outside of social settings and I’m carrying around my self harm kit in my back pack in case I want to hurt myself. But the worst that gets to me is my eating disorder especially since I’m overweight and in a very stressful job (that I love but I’m seriously just so burnt out) Just need to get it out there because I have no one to talk to at all