I’ve loved this particular girl in my life for over two years now and I can’t stop loving her. She’s a prolific dater and has had a lot of partners while I’ve had barely any experience. We dated for a week but I got sent to rehab and we broke up. I told her I still loved her when I got out but she’d already started dating someone else. We never even discussed breaking up so I was really sad for a long time. We’re friends and we see each-other every so often but she only talks to me and reaches out to me when she has something to gain (such as smoking with me, going out to eat, going shopping, etc). I’ve told her about my feelings many times at this point and she keeps saying she loves me too and that she just doesn’t see me like that but it was never elaborated upon and I just don’t understand why she doesn’t like me like that when she’s dated most people she knows and those relationships lasted longer- they were happier. She was happier. I just give up so much time worrying and thinking about her when she never reciprocates. I love being around her and she’s told me many times that she doesn’t want to lose me- that I’m important to her. She’s now dating a new girl that she never informed me of (I know most of her partners as they are her friends for the most part). She talks to me about how much she loves her girlfriend and how they found a guy to be fwb for both of them. I just… I’m jealous. I know it’s pretty normal but it feels so painful. It feels physically painful. It makes me wonder what she doesn’t see in me. All I want is for her to be happy and if she’s happy with her gf I want her to be able to stay in that relationship but yeah, it fucking hurts. I will never make an advance on her when she’s in a dedicated relationship but I can’t help my feelings for her. I don’t understand how to move on. Our mutual friends always tell me to break it off but I love having her in my life. I want her in my life even if it’s not in a romantic way. I truly don’t care. I just feel like she never sees me. I feel like she lies to me about loving me and I don’t even know why I feel that way. It’s really hard to deal with and I truly don’t know how to proceed. Any advice would be appreciated, I really need it. Thank you guys for reading.