I felt like posting this on the Brisbane subreddit due to the fact I know there are other people like me that who may be struggling with their lives. Mods just delete this If it is not allowed. But I felt that if I can post this and kind of speak up about my problems which I have not done in years many of you can as well.

Also This is my alt account for personal reasons.

This post is going to be a bit over all the shop. But I just need to get it out. I can’t be fucked with correcting grammar and my English just because of all the emotions going through my head. I can’t really make a TLDR about my emotions so sorry lazy readers (that’s me as well, I don’t blame ya)

I’ll just describe my recent events as best as I can. I am writing this after a fight we had with my parents.

Ok so here it goes.

My life has begun to turn for the worst and hit me like a train of pain, sadness, anxiety and depression. I’m a 20 year old guy from Brissie. who goes to Griffith uni, so gday nice to meet ya :)).

I still live at home basically live in room and segregate myself from the family from all the uni work I do. I feel like I won’t be able to achieve anything good. My anxiety is also fucked. I bite my nails, my heart is always racing, I self doubt my self a lot of the time, my confidence has gone down hill.

But uni has really fucked me, my first year of uni went better than expected getting 4s and 5s which I consider quite alright. Currently I’m in my second year and It’s just ruined me, I try and pass these subjects but it’s just too hard for me. I know that I’m just going to fuck up again and again.

I have had multiple jobs in the past which have fired me after the first couple of months which obviously has effected my confidence drastically. But I am kinda thankful that I have found a job which only gives me one shift basically a week but after working nearly 9 months I want to find something better. But the problem with this is that I’m just nervous I’m going to get sacked after the first couple of months.

Also another thing which isn’t necessarily vital information to this but just not being able to get a girlfriend has effected my confidence drastically. Which makes me second guess my self wondering if I will be able to find someone.

My life now just consists of the same repetitive shit over and over again. Go to uni, fuck up, come home and do the same shit.

I’m on the fence of doing suicide cause my life is so shit but I know that I wont be able to cause I don’t want my parents to suffer so much just cause I couldn’t cope with my own personal problems.

I want to try and make something of my life instead of just doing the same shit over and over again. I do have hobbies I do thoroughly enjoy doing but I can never find anywhere to try and be able to do them and thrive in it. I’m just never been able to do something good.

Thank you for reading this post, sorry if it was a bit over the shop but I’m glad i kinda got it out of my system a bit.

I just want to tell you, yes YOU, that you’re a beautiful human being and I hope that you have a great day. If you need to talk to someone, I’m here for you.

Just a small edit: I’m actually really thankful For all the kind comments. I wasn’t expecting this much positivity from people. Thank you all, I fucking love you ❤️