I am feeling so guilty over stopping breastfeeding. I'm literally in tears. My baby boy is 4.5 months old. He exclusively breastfed for 3.5 months and then we had to start supplementing due to me going back to work and my supply not being great. Now, fast forward a month and I am trying to wean him off breast and go to formula. Our hourly has been incredible except for a low supply. I am wanting to stop to be able to focus on my body which makes me feel so selfish. Before getting pregnant, I struggled with Binge eating disorder, I took medicine to help curb the urges to binge eat and did therapy. I was able to only gain 25 pounds during pregnancy, but after giving birth and starting breastfeeding, I am like a bottomless pit. I just eat and eat and never feel satisfied and I can't take my medication because I am breastfeeding. I am getting so depressed with my body because I'm falling back into old habits. But I also feel like I am failing my baby by stopping our breastfeeding journey. The closeness and how he roots on me looking for my boob to eat and how nobody else can have that bind with him. I'm having a hard time mentally about both stopping breastfeeding, but also about my binge eating and weight gain. I lost my pregnancy weight and now I weigh more than I did while I was pregnant. I hate my body and I wish that wasn't the case. I know there is nothing wrong with formula feeding, as fed is best. I'm just having a hard time.