Desperate vibes rant incoming: I've been really sinking into deep depression and struggling for two weeks now. I know I'm in the thick of my treatment, my final TC infusion was delayed, and I guess that it makes sense(?), but I'm really struggling. It seems like anyone I could personally talk to about it is tired of talking about it. They don't get it anyway. So im left feeling like a deflated balloon floating away into the sky untethered, alone, aimless...I'm just so emotionally tired from this whole year. It's weighing on me and the fear of how long this is going to continue is paralyzing me today. Tried walking and cried. It's hot as hell. Slept for an hour when I should've been working- felt guilty. Eating sugar too much and it is making me feel sick. I'm pretty sure my vagina is disappearing despite my attempts to keep it around (this is agonizing). I am feeling more alone and hopeless by the day and it scares me. :(