We’ve been having to pinch pennies lately and don’t ever go out, do anything nice or anything that isn’t free and all that fun jazz. We drink gross $2 brick espresso out of a French press. Makes me gag, but it does it’s job as coffee and lasts a while.

I got a Starbucks gift card recently and was looking forward to using it today all week. I don’t ever get to treat myself and today I was able to use it on our entire family of 3! I took maybe 3 sips of my venti pumpkin spice cold brew before I got home and set it down to do household chores.

My 5 year old called out to me from another room that the cat was trying to get into my coffee, so I asked if he could move either my coffee, or remove the cat. MY mistake. I should have carried it around with me or gotten the damn thing myself. My son had a moment of confusion, and decided to take my coffee and dump it all down the sink.

I got upset. I didn’t even put a dent in that coffee. I wanted to savor it, and haven’t had coffee out in months. So I yelled. “Why did you do that?! What made you think that was a good idea! I didn’t even get to drink any! I can’t have anything nice can I? Great job!” And I walked away.

Guys I lost my shit over fucking PUMPKIN SPICE. Fucking Starbucks. Mom of the year here, way to go.

I apologized to my 5 year old for yelling, told him how I was wrong and mommy made a mistake, and I’m making it up to him by playing soccum boppers at the playground later which I never do and he’s so excited. He just had a brain fart poor thing, he didn’t mean to do it. He’s forgiven me, but I still feel like shit and don’t know what got into me.

Over coffee. God I’m ridiculous. Just wanted to rant about my mom fail today, there should be a flair for ‘self rant.’