I can't recover from overexertion easily because I've stayed so tense constantly from fury. I'm still trapped here in my ex's house, forcing myself to speak gently and respectfully to him instead of breaking his bedroom door off its hinges to scream "GET OFF YOUR ASS AND ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR CHILDREN." My chest hurts. My head hurts. God, I hurt from head to toe, honestly. He just closes himself in his room with his partner and does whatever he wants...meanwhile I don't get a break even at night, since the kids won't stay in their beds, but their dad can sleep all night and after work he can drink or get high and watch tv locked in his room away from the kids. I'm so miserable and angry and I need to cry but I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF CRY. My face just won't fucking get it out.