It used to be that I struggled with wanting to end it all but now my meds are actually have me in a good place. I'm more content than I've ever been. However, I'm not happy. My relationship is tanking. I gave him a letter about a month ago telling him how I felt and he changed for a week. He's gone right back to his old habits. Not spending the time with us like he should. Not eating dinner with us hardly. Holing himself up in his room playing video games and listening to audiobooks. He's still getting his medication worked out and I think he's using that as an excuse honestly. And finally, we haven't had sex in 3 months now. I'm dying here. My love language is physical touch and I just want attention. Anything. Not even playful touching anymore. I'm so lonely and feel so unloved. I want my relationship back. I want to feel loved. I want to not keep worrying if he's still attracted to me. I just want my partner back.