So went down memory lane last night quite literally driving down old roads for shortcuts and it brought up a lot of old memories about college and old friends . I realized that I don't really have any of my friends that contact me just to hang out. It's always whenever they're upset or feeling down on themselves that they call me or reach out to me. And it just bummed me out. I don't hear from anyone ever now that I moved to suburbia with a kid. And the 1 friend that regularly keeps in touch still is bouncing around between guys and parties and is the main reason for why I feel this way. I just started a new job and am finding it super hard to make friends too because it's a hostile environment. (wish I had known that before I started here...) I have my old coworkers that I'm trying to stay in touch with but I know they'll do the same thing eventually where I'm not a friend, just someone they worked with. I'm just having a shitty day and needed to get this out.