I officially go back to work next week Tuesday! I literally want a time warp to happen so tomorrow will actually be next week, I cannot wait.

I never thought I'd hate maternity leave as much as I have but I feel so useless. I love my 3yo and I love my newborn but I fucking hate being stuck at home. My oldest has been a pure asshole the past few days. She is literally under my feet every time I move. And every time I finally get to sleep she is up and talking away waking the baby up.

My fiancé has been cool but a dick when I have high anxiety days. Went grocery shopping the other day, all 4 of us, and he couldn't even pay attention so my 3yo wouldn't run off.

Baby has been awesome though, she slept through the night last night and that got me really excited that maybe I will be going back to work more myself and less zombie. Tonight she's even napped long enough that I could color my hair so I can feel even more human like than I have in over a month!

But I know the good is going to run out and next week is going to be a disaster