Small warning, this is kind of long....

So I am 22 and a single mom to my daughter, who is 19 months old. We live with my mom, her boyfriend, and one of my sisters who is 25. I didn't graduate high school, so I am trying to do the GED test and there is nothing nearby that will help with the costs, I've looked.

At the start of October I am planning on taking 2 parts of the test, which would cost me $70 together. Then in November do the last 2 tests, another $70. Then it's $35 for any retake for each test. I'm on welfare, so I get $541 each month and pay my mom $200 for rent and then pay $45 for my phone.

My mom and sister are constantly telling me what to do with my daughter, and what I supposedly never do enough of. I'm apparently supposed to be with my daughter all the time, but if my mom wants to take her I need to be completely okay with it and drop everything if she wants me to come get my daughter. I should give her a bath every other night and have her in bed by a certain time(before 10 pm), but my room is right by the bathroom and my mom and sister go in and out all night. My mom is always in there doing the mop water, or moping in the living room with all the lights on with those lights shining in mine and my daughter's shared room. My sister is usually going in and out of the bathroom to wash her hair or go pee all throughout the night, she pees so freaking much.

My daughter wakes up 2-3 times at night, we do bed share which I should stop and get her in her own bed I know. Each time my daughter wakes she refuses to sleep until she gets another bottle, which means by morning her diapers are soaked or she needs to be changed in the early morning hours in which she is hard to get back to sleep and cranky.

It's just like nothing I do is right or enough and they are constantly jumping on me for every little thing. My mom is a hoarder, and she doesn't want anyone messing with her things. I'm not allowed to throw anything away, the old bottles of my daughter that I tried tossing are now in my mom's trunk. Everything of mine and Hailey's is literally stuffed in the room me and Hailey share. I have a tiny room! Hell we only have one small dresser, with 4 drawers and only one is Hailey's. I just don't even know anymore ughhhh.

Rant over.

I need to move out though, but I can't until I get my GED and start college and get a part time job. But then I have to find childcare for Hailey who hates strangers an will scream and cry if someone she doesn't know even talks to her. And my mom and sister keep talking how I have to potty train her soon and I need to get her off the bottle and drinking less milk but neither of them are actually ever around her.

I wish I had a few green apple smirnoffs ugh.