I’m sure I’m going to get a lot of judgement from this and I deserve it.

I’ve been having an emotional affair with a coworker and my husband found out and wants to get divorced. Our kids are 7 and 3. I ruined our fucking lives with my selfishness. Everyday I kept thinking you have to stop this and it just kept escalating and escalating and I was in so deep I didn’t know how to climb out.

I’m not making excuses. The obvious answer is I should have just fucking stopped. And I didn’t. And that’s a choice I made.

We are supposed to leave for vacation in 3 days and the kids were so excited and now I don’t know what to do about this either. Let him take the kids and I stay back?

What do I fucking do? I hate myself. I want to die. I borderline have been considering it but I know what it would do to my kids and that’s what’s stopping me.

I am the worst kind of human there is and I deserve nothing.