If you look through my post history, my husband and I had a strained relationship for some time which has been overall amended so this is not about him at all, in fact I suppose he’s the hero. I’m not looking for advice, just screaming into the void I guess.

I don’t understand why my kids aren’t good enough for people to stick around. It’s making me sick and angry and sad. My dad and his long term gf broke up for good back in early October 2023, just before I had baby 2. She had been in my life since I was about 7, her daughter was my first best friend, she played the mother role when my mom wasn’t willing to. I’ll be 26 this year. She stopped showing up for my oldest and decided to completely cut ties with me the day before I had my second. Hasn’t reached out at all.

My MIL, who for years I thought she was a godsend,a blessing, and the best grandma to my oldest has gradually stopped showing up or showing interest for my kids. Her golden child (middle of 3 boys) is getting married and she’s too busy with him that my kids are a last thought. She even told my husband (who she has never treated fairly, he’s the oldest) that if we keep the kids from her it’s fine because his brother will have kids anyway. I stopped inviting her to extra things and don’t ask her to babysit anymore because I always owe her something now.

And my dad who stepped up through all of this is moving 9 hours away because he “can’t find work around here”. He had a job offer for a place nearby, but didn’t like the job. My brother also lives where he’s moving so they’ll get to spend time together. My dad thinks he’s going to fly me, my husband, and my 2 very little kids down to visit often. I live on a farm with livestock and a business. The last person I thought would leave us was him, but my fault for putting so much faith into the village I thought I’d have.

I really have no help. My husband works so much we barely see him, the kids aren’t old enough to go with him in his truck. It’s me and the kids together 24/7. No to help, no one to watch them, and no one willing to sacrifice their ego and time to love them the way they do. I’m so broken and tired. Why aren’t we good enough?