Today, stbx dropped a very predictable bomb on me. His mom wants to buy a house and we pay the rent to her. Folks, I tried to articulate in such a way that I want to leave him, but he ignores me. He's always wanted a house and I knew in my soul that his mom would always give in. It sounds like a neurotic nightmare. He said that I can use this time to practice tidying lol I will be ripped to shit for not putting the laundry away immediately. And I'm a recovering hoarder. Of course, he goes on to guilt trip me into liking his mom. So, I proposed a separation. Him and the kids can live in the house and I help out. I want to cry and no, this lady is not doing from this kindness. It's a win-win, right? he can be in charge and I can be free from him...and see my kids lol I want to cry. He's not my teammate. These are not my teammates or even my family. I love my kids. I hugged my eldest tight these last few days. The differences in communication and how they completely disregard me as a person...it's irreconcilable. And I'm scared that his mom's pressure will compound into him attacking me if I don't do the right things. Things that are so particular to them and it is like a very painful losing game. I have been grieving. I love homeschooling them. Watching them learn Having discussions with them and being around them. I know that this will all come to an end. Plus, the lady really enjoys stress for some reason. I don't want her to see me in any way. My kids are my dream. I get so depressed with just the thought. They won't let me hire a maid service. It's so much like being a slave. I feel trapped.